Hematoma...going back in tomorrow LONG STORY

[hortongirl]

Hey Ladies,

I was feeling SOOO good, until today and it started yesterday. Well, I started the thread of me overreacting, well...I guess I didn't. Went back to the PS today and intially (yesterday) he thought the blood was superficial, but after going in today, he has to go back in. They were trying to get me in this evening, but that didn't work, so I am going in first thing in the morning. It appears that I have a hematoma that needs attention immediately. I had to go through the push and squeeze again today and was in agony. He said he's surprised to see this happen so late in my recovery (10 days post op) and he's never had a case before (lucky me, I get to be the first) b/c he normally makes sure there is absolutely no bleeding before he close. He said that this is one of the risks with any surgery and I asked could I have done it by doing too much to early and he said it was hard to say. His fee is waved, but I have to pay for the OR and anesthia (sp) He said he can't see or tell that there is any infection and doubts very seriously if there is but he has to go in and clear/clean everything out see where the blood is and I think I am going to get a drain this go round. Now I will say, my boobies hurt more today than it did before. He asked if I was feeling discomfort prior to and i said yeah, but how would I know anything was outside of the norm for healing, I mean I've never had a breast augmentation before and thought everything was a part of healing.

So today I had to make preparations and payments to the office manager for my procedure tomorrow. She was extremely sympathetic and tried to tell me everthing would be okay and her incision ripped open and everything turned and her problems turned out fine, but I'm thinking, well I'm the rare case. Oh, he said if the hematoma wasn't addressed I could get CC, so he really wanted to go in a get things looked at cleaned and set me back on recovery. He pushed and squeezed on the right and said it was doing great, but heck I thought they all were doing great until I saw the blood.

At this point I'm not upset at him, maybe at myself b/c I don't know if I did too much then I also say well this was self induced I wanted this (but I will say I don't regret it). So he gave me worst case, if things didn't get better or infected me may have to remove, BUT at this moment doesn't see that necessary b/c infection isn't present and he started me on antibiotics since yesterday. Now ladies, I am the BEST support system for any and every one else, but when it comes to me, I analyze EVERYTHING I do/did and end up bringing the blame back to myself. While I was in the office taking care of setting up the surgery I finally couldn't take it anymore and just broke down. I've been crying ALL day long, ESPECIALLY when I am explaining to fam about having to go back and especially when I think I could've possible prevented this. I think I've even induced a migraine b/c my head is killing me, everything seems loud and I just want the lights to go. SO, I ask you ladies to keep me in your prayers.

I really thought everything was going well for me, I mean I noticed the left a lil higher, but I'm right handed so thought that had something to do with it, but I'm being positive at this point b/c it is what it is, I have to go back in and I just pray I come out of this unscathed and back to being a happy camper with my new girls. I keep telling myself, a minor hurdle to a wonderful result. Thanks for listening/reading my thoughts, just ready to feel better, now I wanna really make sure the right is okay, now I'm worried about ALL of them, for now he said it's not looking like an explant, thank goodness and hopefully it stays that way. I do wonder though, he hasn't told me about massaging or anything, but he was squeezing the hell outta those jokers, so maybe not just yet. With all the squeezing he did now the right is hurting so I am gonna tell him make sure that one is okay too, b/c I just don't have grands sitting around in my back pocket.

I just am really bummed out, and I'm like gosh, I gotta go under AGAIN, sore throat AGAIN, pain meds AGAIN, the bed AGAIN. But at the end of it all, I am going to say I am blessed, when I noticed something was weird I got it checked out, the PS is being proactive, I am not infected and I am claiming no infection, so at the end of this I will be happy.

Sorry for writing a book and taking so long, but I just had to let you ladies know what was going on. For all the previous support with my recovery thanks, now I'm going through recovery again, but once again, I am claiming blessed results. Okay, I'm done rambling, thanks to everyone.

[mama2twingirls]

Don't blame yourself girl.

I know where you are coming from though because I am the same way over analyzing everything. I don't think you over did anything, shoot, my PS sends his patients home and tells them to take a shower and do light housework and belives in rapid recovery.

Big hugs and lots of prayers.
Mesha

[steph72]

Hi Monique,
My heart sank after reading your post - I'm so sorry you're going through this! You can't blame yourself though - this could have happened to anyone...it could have happened if you laid in bed this whole time. I'm thinking of you and saying an extra prayer for you. Please keep us posted and remember that you're not alone.
Sending you a big hug from Houston!

[Ema]

Just wanted to let you know I'm claiming the same for you! I will pray for peace of mind and strength for you, as well as knowledge for your surgeon.
Just know you are being lifted up!

[Phenomom]

I'm so sorry to hear about the Hematoma. I know it sucks but I'm glad you caught it early. I also understand your frustration. U are entitled to your feelings. Don't beat yourself up. PS says that sometimes Hematomas just happen. You already know that you're blessed. Trust that all will be well going forward. You will be in my prayers.

[workoutgirl]

I hate you are going through this. I will certainly keep you in my prayers. Try not to blame yourself. Keep us posted, okay!

[Admin]

I'm so sorry this happened to you Monique. I'm glad your ps is taking care of it as quickly as possible. When you get home, please take it easy, and don't do too much. I'm not saying that this is your fault. I just want you to be on the safe side and take it VERY easy. I'm sure your surgery will turn out fine. I doubt it'll come to explanting. Your surgeon sounds like he is just being very honest with you and going over all of the possibilities.

I'll definitely keep you in my prayers. Please post when you're feeling up to it and let us know how you're doing. We'll be thinking of you tomorrow!!! I'm gonna add this to the calendar too, btw. ((GENTLE HUGS))

[Nan]

Monique, you are in my prayers.

[Galore]

I'm so sorry to hear this happened to you! At least your PS is able to take care of it right away...you'll be in my thoughts *hugs*

[hortongirl]

Originally Posted by Nikki

I'm so sorry this happened to you Monique. I'm glad your ps is taking care of it as quickly as possible. When you get home, please take it easy, and don't do too much. I'm not saying that this is your fault. I just want you to be on the safe side and take it VERY easy. I'm sure your surgery will turn out fine. I doubt it'll come to explanting. Your surgeon sounds like he is just being very honest with you and going over all of the possibilities.

I'll definitely keep you in my prayers. Please post when you're feeling up to it and let us know how you're doing. We'll be thinking of you tomorrow!!! I'm gonna add this to the calendar too, btw. ((GENTLE HUGS))

You know what this time I am going to do just that, take it easy, both my mothers, sister, hubby, kids they all told me to just recovery so after this scare I am, and with faith I know everything is going to be okay. Thanks, I appreciate your support. I got so worked up I had to take 2 Tylenol PMs earlier b/c I didn't really wanna take the migraine meds and now I'm sipping green tea after the Ambien, my mind just can't settle and th headache hurt, so...I'll let you all know when I'm up and able. Thanks!

[Admin]

Ambien and Tylenol PM? Damn girl, it'll take a freight train to wake you up in the morning! Seriously, I hope you can get some rest (and I think you will, lol), and I hope your headache goes away. I have a history of migraines, and they really suck. You'll be fine. Just think positive thoughts.

[ccmagda]

Don't blame yourself. It was going to happen regardless of what you did. I will keep you in my prayers and hope everything works out. Coming from someone who had the same thing...keep positive. It will work out.
Take care and let us know how you make out

[Tamster]

you're not rambling and cry away as you may ...this is a very scarey road but you will get through it...don't be too hard on yourself, blaming yourself will get you nowhere... think positive and forward...follow all instructions carefully .... let's let this be the last time in for you....i've been there, you have a shoulder here anythime you like ((soft hugs))

[yellowroses911]

Monique,

Just wanted to let u know that I will keep u in my prayers. Keep the faith, and good luck tomorrow!!!

[Victory]

Originally Posted by hortongirl

I keep telling myself, a minor hurdle to a wonderful result.

So, sorry for your setback, Monique. YES! Keep reminding yourself: "....a minor hurdle to a wonderful result."

Wishing you a speedy recovery!

[Splendid]

Monique, I'm sorry your going through this. As the ladies have stated, please don't blame yourself. I will keep you in my thoughts/prayers for a safe surgery and a speedy recovery.

[sweet-t]

Hey Sweetie...

Gosh, I'm just so sorry. It is emotional, I know, and that is nothing to apologize about. That is why we are all here, and it is healing to let it out and then receive the love coming your way.

Even IF (and it is not just a BIG IF but a GIGANTIC IF) this complication was impacted by something you did, you did the best you knew to do at the time. Which is all any of us can do. But like my infection, hematoma is a risk with any surgery and what may have 'caused' it is inconsequential at this point. The important thing is you caught it, it is being taken care of. This is indeed a "burp" in your overall breast augmentation experience and recovery, and you will come out the otherside.

Bless your heart...

[Dreamz]

Monique, I am so very sorry you're having to go through this!
I had bad hematomas on each side and they were torture! (they were beside the breasts on each side) It's good that your PS is going to do something about it! Are you using ice on them? They told me to do that for mine and it seemed to help.
Try not to beat yourself up over this. I got two bad ones and I did absolutely NOTHING after my surgery but lay around and I still got them. I just bruise VERY easily so I guess that's why. You honestly probably would have gotten them anyway-with our without doing too much.
I hope that you get some relief soon hon. You will be in my thoughts and prayers! ((HUGS)) Good luck!

Originally Posted by hortongirl

Hey Ladies,

I was feeling SOOO good, until today and it started yesterday. Well, I started the thread of me overreacting, well...I guess I didn't. Went back to the PS today and intially (yesterday) he thought the blood was superficial, but after going in today, he has to go back in. They were trying to get me in this evening, but that didn't work, so I am going in first thing in the morning. It appears that I have a hematoma that needs attention immediately. I had to go through the push and squeeze again today and was in agony. He said he's surprised to see this happen so late in my recovery (10 days post op) and he's never had a case before (lucky me, I get to be the first) b/c he normally makes sure there is absolutely no bleeding before he close. He said that this is one of the risks with any surgery and I asked could I have done it by doing too much to early and he said it was hard to say. His fee is waved, but I have to pay for the OR and anesthia (sp) He said he can't see or tell that there is any infection and doubts very seriously if there is but he has to go in and clear/clean everything out see where the blood is and I think I am going to get a drain this go round. Now I will say, my boobies hurt more today than it did before. He asked if I was feeling discomfort prior to and i said yeah, but how would I know anything was outside of the norm for healing, I mean I've never had a breast augmentation before and thought everything was a part of healing.

So today I had to make preparations and payments to the office manager for my procedure tomorrow. She was extremely sympathetic and tried to tell me everthing would be okay and her incision ripped open and everything turned and her problems turned out fine, but I'm thinking, well I'm the rare case. Oh, he said if the hematoma wasn't addressed I could get CC, so he really wanted to go in a get things looked at cleaned and set me back on recovery. He pushed and squeezed on the right and said it was doing great, but heck I thought they all were doing great until I saw the blood.

At this point I'm not upset at him, maybe at myself b/c I don't know if I did too much then I also say well this was self induced I wanted this (but I will say I don't regret it). So he gave me worst case, if things didn't get better or infected me may have to remove, BUT at this moment doesn't see that necessary b/c infection isn't present and he started me on antibiotics since yesterday. Now ladies, I am the BEST support system for any and every one else, but when it comes to me, I analyze EVERYTHING I do/did and end up bringing the blame back to myself. While I was in the office taking care of setting up the surgery I finally couldn't take it anymore and just broke down. I've been crying ALL day long, ESPECIALLY when I am explaining to fam about having to go back and especially when I think I could've possible prevented this. I think I've even induced a migraine b/c my head is killing me, everything seems loud and I just want the lights to go. SO, I ask you ladies to keep me in your prayers.

I really thought everything was going well for me, I mean I noticed the left a lil higher, but I'm right handed so thought that had something to do with it, but I'm being positive at this point b/c it is what it is, I have to go back in and I just pray I come out of this unscathed and back to being a happy camper with my new girls. I keep telling myself, a minor hurdle to a wonderful result. Thanks for listening/reading my thoughts, just ready to feel better, now I wanna really make sure the right is okay, now I'm worried about ALL of them, for now he said it's not looking like an explant, thank goodness and hopefully it stays that way. I do wonder though, he hasn't told me about massaging or anything, but he was squeezing the hell outta those jokers, so maybe not just yet. With all the squeezing he did now the right is hurting so I am gonna tell him make sure that one is okay too, b/c I just don't have grands sitting around in my back pocket.

I just am really bummed out, and I'm like gosh, I gotta go under AGAIN, sore throat AGAIN, pain meds AGAIN, the bed AGAIN. But at the end of it all, I am going to say I am blessed, when I noticed something was weird I got it checked out, the PS is being proactive, I am not infected and I am claiming no infection, so at the end of this I will be happy.

Sorry for writing a book and taking so long, but I just had to let you ladies know what was going on. For all the previous support with my recovery thanks, now I'm going through recovery again, but once again, I am claiming blessed results. Okay, I'm done rambling, thanks to everyone.

[gemma]

im really sorry Monique, this must be distressing new for you. just so you know you are in my thoughts and i hope everything works out well for you.
Keep us posted.
all the best Gemma xxxxx

[PetuPetu]

Monique I'm really sorry you are going through this setback. Please don't blame yourself. Assigning blame or trying to figure out why this happened will be counterproductive to your healing. Try to stay positive so your body will get healing vibes and make itself better again. Take it very easy after this procedure and give your body the rest it needs. Keep us posted.