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MMLynn · 02-06-2008, 01:30 AM

Right now I'm sitting at about 3 hours post op, and heavily medicated so I apologize in advance. I really wanted to tell my story.

For me it starts off sad but I figure there may be someone out there that can benefit from me sharing to know they are not alone. Sorry for being long. It feels good to get this off my chest.

Growing up I always the larger breasted girl. It was a part of me and was my image. My husband and I just had started to date and about 6 months into it, I got pregnant (after being told I probably wouldn't be able to have children). I immediately started to lay off coffee and caffeine and anything that was bad, stopped coloring my hair, took my medications, avoided anyone smoking... you name it I did it. My body swelled up and it was incredible... I was elated and overcome with joy. Well, the unthinkable happened and about 6 months into I started to bleed and have sharp sharp pains. I went straight to the hospital and they put me in a treatment room for a few hours, alone and came back to tell me that "I was pregnant". Huh? Yeah thats why I was there..... They referred me to my doctor the next day but by then it was too late... I had a miscarriage. It was so devastating, obviously. Then nature decided to throw more at me, I lactated for a month or so.

Fast forward to recently, because of that I suffered from depression, I had a n overactive thyroid prior to the pregnancy and the hormone change made it switch to a underactive thyroid and I gained 30 lbs (I'm not superficial, it's just hard to put into words what my grief was). So I lost my baby, I gained weight and lastly I went from a 32E to about a 34B. I did not feel like a woman at all. Not only did I lose breast tissue from milk but I didn't have a baby! I had to leave the place I worked, it was too hard. There were around 400 people and they all knew who I was. When I'd run into people they'd ask "Oh wow a breast reduction, you look great"..... What do you say to that?

After I recovered from the depression (5 years later) I decided I wanted a BA. It won't change the issues I have carrying a child, but perhaps it would give me my confidence back.

I found my doctor on mmy first consultation. He was terrific, although his ideas for me did not jive with what I thought I needed. After much inquiry I discovered he did unders/overs silicone and saline. His reasons were pure. We decided on saline, overs and 500ish cc's. He didn't think he could fit any more then 500 but he knew I wanted "large".

I arrived at the surgical center at 3:30 to fill out paperwork. They had me change into a paper gown and robe with those way hot socks. They allowed my husband to come into the waiting room with me and he played music for me on my phone to keep me calm.. Holy cow, thats when it started to feel real. I got my IV and then it was time to go back to the OR. The staff was excellent and told me I was going to look good. The operating table had a warm air thing called a "bear hug" which kept me nice and ready. The last thing I remember is the anesthesiologist told me she was going to give me something to make me feel happy. Well! Then I woke up and the first thing they said was "Sweetie, we got 525 in and they are huge!!". I didn't need to hang out in the recovery room as I felt good enough to go to the car and it was about 6.

The ride home was very very hard. I felt every bump nbut my hubby was so attentive and fantastic. We stopped to pick up a jamba juice (I hadn't eaten all day) and some panera bread, which I just felt okay enough to eat.

When I got home around 6:30ish I went straight to bed, took some pain medication and tried to sleep. My creases and nipples were so painful. It was pretty hard but it felt good to lay down. Around 8:30 I felt strong to eat.

It's now 9:30 and I have the energy to browse these forums filled with incredible woman.

Tomorrow I go in and have my ace bandage replaced and next Tuesday I'll be in the soft bra. I also have drains until then. I think I get the fantastic strap tomorrow. Heh.

Right now I can see the tops of my cleavage and it's amazing. I fele more like a girl now.

Sorry so long and babbly. These pills are working.

FullerBreasts · 02-06-2008, 01:38 AM

Tears....

It's amazing the journeys we go through during our lifetime. Everything has a reason and purpose behind it. You are very strong and I am so happy for you. I'm sure you look amazing...Large and In-Charge!!! Congrats on your BA and hope you have a super speady recovery. (have fun with the strap) I had drains too and it felt so good to get rid of them.

Slinky · 02-06-2008, 01:40 AM

Hurray for huge! You are awesome, sharing your story so soon. Now - go rest!

Annie

MMLynn · 02-06-2008, 01:42 AM

Thanks guys. Gonna lay down now, it felt good to sit up for a bit.

FullerBreasts · 02-06-2008, 01:47 AM

[quote=Slinky;283576]Hurray for huge! You are awesome, sharing your story so soon. Now - go rest!

Exactly......take it easy....enjoy the break......you're gonna have to get up and active soon enough.....Congrats again!!!

avbjessup · 02-06-2008, 02:14 AM

Congratulations my dear! You certainly deserve to feel wonderful about yourself! I'm so sorry about the loss of the baby and the other child bearing issues. I hope this is one positive step in the life-long growing and healing process.

sherron · 02-06-2008, 12:33 PM

So sorry for the tragedy in your life. Happy healing, in every sense of the word.
You are AWESOME posting SO quickly! Congrats on your new BIG boobs.

jeremysgirl1984 · 02-06-2008, 02:09 PM

Congrats! I'm glad to hear you are feeling more like a woman again. Thank you for sharing your special story.

Deon · 02-06-2008, 03:29 PM

Congratulations. Here's to a great recovery and to loving our bodies.

Wen-D · 02-06-2008, 05:11 PM

thank you for sharing your story and congratulations.

MMLynn · 02-06-2008, 05:29 PM

Today I had a one day post op. Nothing too eventful. I got to seem the boobs without covering.

After that I had enough energy to get a few things from Costco and Target, I picked up some nipple gel things as my nipples started to get sore. They seem to really help.
I won't be able to get my drains out until next week but's faily easy to hide.

So,

Day 2: Did some light shopping. Hubby carried everything. Crease's hurt a bit. Now I'm back in bed with icepacks. Also I'm eating...mmmm...

colcoop · 02-06-2008, 08:15 PM

amazing story, you are a wonderful woman...congrats on the new you.

MMLynn · 02-06-2008, 09:04 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by colcoop

amazing story, you are a wonderful woman...congrats on the new you.

Thank you so so much. It's so nice doing something for myself for once.

sherron · 02-07-2008, 01:22 PM

mmlynn,

you look awesome, BTW.

Wen-D · 02-07-2008, 03:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by sherron

mmlynn,

you look awesome, BTW.

I second that...

02-06-2008, 01:30 AM	#1
MMLynn Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Someplace, Somewhere Posts: 1,744 Thanks: 465 Thanked 634 Times in 582 Posts	Feeling like a woman again. Right now I'm sitting at about 3 hours post op, and heavily medicated so I apologize in advance. I really wanted to tell my story. For me it starts off sad but I figure there may be someone out there that can benefit from me sharing to know they are not alone. Sorry for being long. It feels good to get this off my chest. Growing up I always the larger breasted girl. It was a part of me and was my image. My husband and I just had started to date and about 6 months into it, I got pregnant (after being told I probably wouldn't be able to have children). I immediately started to lay off coffee and caffeine and anything that was bad, stopped coloring my hair, took my medications, avoided anyone smoking... you name it I did it. My body swelled up and it was incredible... I was elated and overcome with joy. Well, the unthinkable happened and about 6 months into I started to bleed and have sharp sharp pains. I went straight to the hospital and they put me in a treatment room for a few hours, alone and came back to tell me that "I was pregnant". Huh? Yeah thats why I was there..... They referred me to my doctor the next day but by then it was too late... I had a miscarriage. It was so devastating, obviously. Then nature decided to throw more at me, I lactated for a month or so. Fast forward to recently, because of that I suffered from depression, I had a n overactive thyroid prior to the pregnancy and the hormone change made it switch to a underactive thyroid and I gained 30 lbs (I'm not superficial, it's just hard to put into words what my grief was). So I lost my baby, I gained weight and lastly I went from a 32E to about a 34B. I did not feel like a woman at all. Not only did I lose breast tissue from milk but I didn't have a baby! I had to leave the place I worked, it was too hard. There were around 400 people and they all knew who I was. When I'd run into people they'd ask "Oh wow a breast reduction, you look great"..... What do you say to that? After I recovered from the depression (5 years later) I decided I wanted a BA. It won't change the issues I have carrying a child, but perhaps it would give me my confidence back. I found my doctor on mmy first consultation. He was terrific, although his ideas for me did not jive with what I thought I needed. After much inquiry I discovered he did unders/overs silicone and saline. His reasons were pure. We decided on saline, overs and 500ish cc's. He didn't think he could fit any more then 500 but he knew I wanted "large". I arrived at the surgical center at 3:30 to fill out paperwork. They had me change into a paper gown and robe with those way hot socks. They allowed my husband to come into the waiting room with me and he played music for me on my phone to keep me calm.. Holy cow, thats when it started to feel real. I got my IV and then it was time to go back to the OR. The staff was excellent and told me I was going to look good. The operating table had a warm air thing called a "bear hug" which kept me nice and ready. The last thing I remember is the anesthesiologist told me she was going to give me something to make me feel happy. Well! Then I woke up and the first thing they said was "Sweetie, we got 525 in and they are huge!!". I didn't need to hang out in the recovery room as I felt good enough to go to the car and it was about 6. The ride home was very very hard. I felt every bump nbut my hubby was so attentive and fantastic. We stopped to pick up a jamba juice (I hadn't eaten all day) and some panera bread, which I just felt okay enough to eat. When I got home around 6:30ish I went straight to bed, took some pain medication and tried to sleep. My creases and nipples were so painful. It was pretty hard but it felt good to lay down. Around 8:30 I felt strong to eat. It's now 9:30 and I have the energy to browse these forums filled with incredible woman. Tomorrow I go in and have my ace bandage replaced and next Tuesday I'll be in the soft bra. I also have drains until then. I think I get the fantastic strap tomorrow. Heh. Right now I can see the tops of my cleavage and it's amazing. I fele more like a girl now. Sorry so long and babbly. These pills are working.

02-06-2008, 01:38 AM	#2
FullerBreasts Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Conroe, Texas Sign: Posts: 306 Thanks: 100 Thanked 88 Times in 75 Posts	Tears.... It's amazing the journeys we go through during our lifetime. Everything has a reason and purpose behind it. You are very strong and I am so happy for you. I'm sure you look amazing...Large and In-Charge!!! Congrats on your BA and hope you have a super speady recovery. (have fun with the strap) I had drains too and it felt so good to get rid of them. __________________

02-06-2008, 01:40 AM	#3
Slinky Forum Moderator Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: US of A Posts: 4,559 My Mood: Thanks: 763 Thanked 2,473 Times in 1,970 Posts	Hurray for huge! You are awesome, sharing your story so soon. Now - go rest! Annie __________________

02-06-2008, 01:47 AM	#5
FullerBreasts Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Conroe, Texas Sign: Posts: 306 Thanks: 100 Thanked 88 Times in 75 Posts	[quote=Slinky;283576]Hurray for huge! You are awesome, sharing your story so soon. Now - go rest! Exactly......take it easy....enjoy the break......you're gonna have to get up and active soon enough.....Congrats again!!! __________________

02-06-2008, 02:09 PM	#8
jeremysgirl1984 645cc...34F/36DD Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Missouri Sign: Posts: 691 My Mood: Thanks: 676 Thanked 323 Times in 277 Posts	Congrats! I'm glad to hear you are feeling more like a woman again. Thank you for sharing your special story. __________________

02-06-2008, 01:42 AM	#4
MMLynn Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Someplace, Somewhere Posts: 1,744 Thanks: 465 Thanked 634 Times in 582 Posts	Thanks guys. Gonna lay down now, it felt good to sit up for a bit.

02-06-2008, 02:14 AM	#6
avbjessup Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Laramie, Wyoming Sign: Posts: 590 Thanks: 85 Thanked 237 Times in 195 Posts	Congratulations my dear! You certainly deserve to feel wonderful about yourself! I'm so sorry about the loss of the baby and the other child bearing issues. I hope this is one positive step in the life-long growing and healing process.

02-06-2008, 12:33 PM	#7
sherron Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Goodyear AZ Sign: Posts: 34 Thanks: 11 Thanked 16 Times in 10 Posts	So sorry for the tragedy in your life. Happy healing, in every sense of the word. You are AWESOME posting SO quickly! Congrats on your new BIG boobs.

02-06-2008, 03:29 PM	#9
Deon Blessed!! Join Date: Dec 2007 Sign: Posts: 437 Thanks: 163 Thanked 191 Times in 142 Posts	Congratulations. Here's to a great recovery and to loving our bodies.

02-06-2008, 05:11 PM	#10
Wen-D Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Katy, Texas Sign: Posts: 28 Thanks: 2 Thanked 10 Times in 10 Posts	thank you for sharing your story and congratulations. __________________ www.justbreastimplants.com/Ciaravino/

02-06-2008, 05:29 PM	#11
MMLynn Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Someplace, Somewhere Posts: 1,744 Thanks: 465 Thanked 634 Times in 582 Posts	Today I had a one day post op. Nothing too eventful. I got to seem the boobs without covering. After that I had enough energy to get a few things from Costco and Target, I picked up some nipple gel things as my nipples started to get sore. They seem to really help. I won't be able to get my drains out until next week but's faily easy to hide. So, Day 2: Did some light shopping. Hubby carried everything. Crease's hurt a bit. Now I'm back in bed with icepacks. Also I'm eating...mmmm...

02-06-2008, 08:15 PM	#12
colcoop Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Massachusetts Sign: Posts: 1,100 My Mood: Thanks: 363 Thanked 409 Times in 349 Posts	amazing story, you are a wonderful woman...congrats on the new you. __________________ BA 2/16/2008 495 /510 SALINE OVERS LOVE THEM!

02-07-2008, 01:22 PM	#14
sherron Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Goodyear AZ Sign: Posts: 34 Thanks: 11 Thanked 16 Times in 10 Posts	mmlynn, you look awesome, BTW.