Finally, my happy story

[sandybaby]

I always hated my tiny AA cup chest. I wore A cup bras that I barely filled just because I couldn't bring myself to buy anything smaller. I was the smallest of all my family and friends. Until I found this site I never knew there were so many other women having boobie blues! I'm 33 and in my 20's I thought about how great it would be to have a boob job but never considered actually doing it b/c the most important thing to me was having children. I couldn't see spending that much on myself when having kids is so expensive, and I really wanted to breastfeed. I know many women breastfeed with implants but there can be complications. Anyway, once I was through having babies and breastfeeding my boobs looked even worse - deflated after I lost all the baby weight and the tiny bit of breast tissue I had to start with. So, I started considering BA but didn't tell anyone I was researching it. I saw online that silicone was back since the FDA approved it again in 2006 and that researchers never found a link to cancer after 15 years of extensive research. I wanted it b/c I have friends with saline implants and they said they wish they had slicone b/c it feels much more natural but it wasn't available when they got theirs.
Once I decided I could go through with the BA, it was all I could think about so I started talking to hubby who didn't want me to do it. He's always said he's not a "boob man", so if I did it, it would be for me not him so I said that was why I wanted it anyway, for me! I wanted to be able to wear a swimsuit top without looking like a 12-year-old girl, and be able to wear all those cute wrap tops and low-cut ones that would fall open with no boobs in them. And most importantly, I wanted to not cringe when I looked in the mirror. I wanted to feel feminine, feel like a woman should. I didn't want to have huge boobs, just wanted some! After a couple months of talking it over my hubby finally agreed to going along with me on this endeavor. I shared it with my close family and friends, and they were so supportive which made me even more excited.
At my consult the PS asked me if I wanted a natural look and I said yes so she had me try on three sizers and I chose 371cc. After that visit I spent hours online looking at before & after pics of women my size and I liked the look of the ones who got 400. So, at my pre-op I went up to 397cc, since the gel mod+ we were going with did not have exactly 400cc. Close enough! I thought since we were going under the muscle the 26cc I went up would help account for what would be lost with unders.
My hubby and I arrived at the medical center on June 24 at 6:45 a.m. for an 8 a.m. surgery. I checked in, signed paperwork and paid the OR and anesthesiologist fees. Then a nurse assistant told me to do a urine sample, even though my tubes are tied, but there's always that 1% chance of pregnancy I guess!
They called me back and prepped me and the nursing staff was super friendly and put me at ease. One of them even talked to me about her implants, which she had for 25 years! The PS came in and made her markings with the black Sharpie, smiled and chatted with me and hubby, and told me how happy I was going to be and the surgery would be easy.
The IV drip was going in too fast b/c it was making my arm skin turn red, flushed looking so they just slowed it down a bit and that helped. They wheeled me to the OR on the bed I was in and asked me to scoot over onto the surgery bed. I remember the anesthisiologist saying hi and I looked at the clock on the wall, and they next thing I knew, I was waking up in a recovery room with a nurse sitting at the foot of my bed! I felt so relieved it was over. She asked how I felt and I said fine. I wanted to look at my new boobs but I felt so drowsy so I just waited for hubby to come in and then took a peek. They didn't look that big and my hubby immediately said the PS told him it would take a while for the muscles to let go of pushing the implants down. That was true, b/c the first few days I was about a B cup and then slowly grew! After just a few minutes they asked if I was ready to go home and I said yes. Hubby helped me get dressed and they wheeled me to the car.
The trip home was easy, but I didn't feel like eating or stopping for coffee like some women say they do. When I got home I needed to pee and as I walked toward the bathroom I started feeling nauseus and thought I was going to throw up, but I didn't and just laid in bed and took deep breaths and the feeling went away. That afternoon I started crying and didn't understand why. I had read that I would be emotional but figured I wouldn't be, but I was wrong! It was just that one time though, after a few minutes I was ok. I think I just felt overwhelmed by everything, but I was still happy.
My mom, sister and mom-in-law took turns taking care of me and the kids they next few days when hubby was at work. I probably didn't rest enough, though, because I'm just an active person and couldn't sit still. I took the pain pills for the first 3 days then switched to tylenol. The whole time I took the pain med. I never had a bowel movement and had to use a laxative suppository the 3rd day. I started eating prunes after that and was taking just tylenol so I slowly got back to normal.
A mistake I made was not taking the muscle relaxer pills, just dealing with the uncomfortable squeezing feeling. I thought I was supposed to take that only when I was feeling the zingers! That was a miscommunication I had with the nurse.
At my first post-op the nurse removed the bandage strips, snipped some of the longer incisions that had not dissolved and put skinnier steri strips on me. She said at my next appt. I can get the silicone scar sheeting to help the healing along. The scars didn't look red like I thought. They're about 2 1/2 inches wide since I got silicone and it is pre-filled, but I know they will heal and almost disappear. I had C-Sections and that was the case with that scar. I hardly notice it now. I have to wear no bra and a strap on top for 2 weeks to help push down the implants because they were riding too high. It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be, the worst part was the headlights showing through my clothes so I had to go buy nipple covers!
I'm getting close to 3 weeks now and I'm very happy. I had to go to the the mall yesterday to take my daughter so I tried on some bras and it was so thrilling to pull those big sizes off the rack and they actually fit! I know I have a lot of changing still to do but I did buy one bra in a 32D that fits great. I hope I get even more cleavage in it as I drop & fluff. I realized after BA that I am between a 32 and 34 band. I measure about 28 1/2" ribcage. I get a 28" if I pull real snug. I always wore a 34 A pre-BA because it was looser and I liked that, and didn't have anything to need support for anyway. So now I am a 32D wearing the loosest hook, or 34C on the tightest hook.
I love this site. I visit every day and I'm so thankful to get to talk to all of you ladies who understand what I'm feeling!

[Hazeleyes]

Congratulations!! I can't wait to join you in boobieville!!

[SAHGKC]

Congratulations; I am glad you are happy!

[sendie]

Looks like we have the same size rib measurement and almost the same size implants - I got 400cc silicone HP. I also went bra shopping yesterday but I ended up getting 2 34D's as I could only find one in 32 and it was an A cup. So glad I can't fit that anymore! I don't want to spend too much money on bras right now because you're right, this probably isn't what size we'll end up being!

[LAPAKI]

congratulations.....hope you have a speedy recovery!!

[Angelblue]

Congratulations! I'm only on day four of recovery, but like you I am so excited to finally have nice boobs again. Yay for D cups!!!

[Alaria]

Congrats on the new chachas. Enjoy yourself.

[xxAngelxx]

Congrats on your new boobies! I bet they look great!

[MASONS GIRL]

Congrats on the new additions. I bet they look fabulous! I also got 400 ccs, silicone gels, unders. I'm about 2 weeks out now and I gotta tell you they just get better everyday! And you're right, bra shopping is the best!