From 1000cc--to 2020cc--to 800cc--to 1200-1400cc!

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

I’ve been visiting this site for years now, but I lurk way more than I post.

Anyway, I have 2020cc salines now but I’ll be downsizing and going with silicone next. I’ve been getting a lot of e-mails and questions about my situation and why I’m downsizing. So I thought I’d share my story here.

So here goes…..

First my stats: I’m 5’8”, normal weight is anywhere from 145-152lbs, 32” ribcage, natural 36D.

Now on to my story….I’ve always loved the huge, round, fake look…the bigger and faker looking the better is the way I saw it.

So in 2005 I had my first BA, along with a Crescent Lift….I got Inamed saline implants, round, smooth, overs, 800cc overfilled to 1000cc. I went from a natural 36D to a 36G. They looked great…big, round and fake looking – just how I like them. At that time though, I didn’t think they were big enough.

So in 2006, I had my second BA….enlarged my pockets and added more saline to my implants, all the way up to 2020cc! I went from a 36G to a 36H. I was huge!! In the beginning I was in love with them. They were amazing, beautiful, huge and fake looking. I totally loved them.

Then around 4-6 months post, I developed CC first in my right boob, then it spread to my left. As time went on, it got progressively worse in my right and a little bit worse in my left.

Fast forward to today….I’m almost 2 years post now…..the CC has gotten extremely bad on the right side and a little bit worse on the left side. At this point, the right side is very painful and both implants are ROCK HARD and just plain uncomfortable. I am miserable and extremely unhappy with my boobs. I am also getting really dissatisfied with the size as well. They are getting to be too cumbersome for me.

I still LOVE huge boobs (in the 2000cc range) but I have come to the conclusion that I love huge boobs on other women! I’d prefer to look at them, NOT live with them! While I still feel that this size looks good on me, it is just not practical living with such huge boobs on a day to day basis and leading a “normal, not-in-the-spotlight” life.

I’m not in the adult industry, I just got huge boobs for myself, not for anyone else or for a job or whatever. So literally going ANYWHERE…whether it be to the grocery store, mall, movies, out to dinner, the park, a club, the casino, walking around outside, ANYWHERE – guaranteed I will be gawked at, pointed at, laughed at, whispered about, stupid girls trying to fight me, sexual rude comments yelled out to me, guys purposely bumping into me in order to “cop a feel”…..seriously outrageous behavior like this I go through on a DAILY BASIS. I’m a very unique person (lots of piercings, tattoos, distinctive makeup, etc) so I’m used to being stared at and whispered about. But having huge boobs brings the attention to a whole different level. I’m the type of person who really doesn’t care about what other people think and who can ignore people for the most part, but after awhile if it becomes too ridiculous, it starts to eat at me and piss me off. Especially when I’m with kids, family or a friend and I get reactions like that – that’s when it’s totally crossing the line.

The only time I don’t get outrageous reactions is when I’m with my brother (who’s 6’4” and built) or I’m with my big bodybuilder male friends….then people will keep a lid on it. But when I’m by myself or with other girls, that’s when people act the worst.

I can deal with attention….like I said, I’ve been getting a lot of attention since I was a kid. But attention like this is unreal. I’ve been in so many scary, threatening situations with strange men before, I should seriously be walking around with a bodyguard every single day. Every day when I go out I feel like a celebrity who’s in the spotlight being trashed all the time….and not in a good spotlight, in a very bad spotlight. It’s not fun at all when it gets to be threatening. When I have children with me, I STILL get sexual comments thrown at me, which is outrageously inappropriate.

The way I dress is nowhere near over the top either…..I wear a lot of loose fitting t-shirts/layered polos/hooded sweatshirts, etc, and when I do wear tighter tops or tank tops, I always layer on 1 or 2 shirts and then usually I’ll even wear a cropped sweater/or cropped hoodie over the tight shirts so my boobs aren’t hanging out and exposed. From the crude reactions I get, you’d think I walk around naked or something, but I actually dress pretty conservative. I totally expect people to look because some people have never seen boobs my size before…..but looking is one thing, openly staring is another, and being downright stupid and nasty is beyond unacceptable.

Aside from the public’s ridiculous reactions….day to day living with 2020cc is a bit too much….they’re pretty heavy...and because they're so firm and un-squishable, they're uncomfortable to sleep with, intimate situations are a tad tricky, finding clothes that fit right is a nightmare, etc.

So because I have to get this CC fixed now, which will require another surgery, I want to switch to silicone and downsize. So for my third BA, I’ll be getting the CC fixed, getting a full lift, and switching these totally overfilled 2020cc salines out with Natrelle silicone gels Style 10, round, smooth, overs, 800cc.

That won’t be the end for me though….800cc is not my final desired size….that’s just the biggest size in silicone (off the shelf) that I can get right now. Eventually, I will be getting custom made silicone gels 1200-1400cc….which will give me the round, fake busty look that I love, but won’t take me too huge to where I can’t dress them down. I’m pretty tall and very curvy, so I need a lot of cc’s to make me busty…..not super huge….just nice and busty.

So, while this huge size didn’t personally work for me, I’m very happy that I got to try this size out and experience it for myself. If I had never went this big, I would’ve always wondered what it felt like. It just really sucks that I got CC so bad, because that’s what made the experience a lot worse as well.

Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to share my experience. For people who aren’t into the huge sizes and are just curious about women who go huge, then I hope my story helped some. And for women who are into the huge sizes, I’m definitely not trying to scare you away from going huge….that’s the last thing I’m trying to do actually…..I’m just sharing MY personal experience that *I’m* personally going through.

I still *LOVE* huge boobs most definitely, I think they are so damn gorgeous and sexy…. it just didn’t work out *for me* having huge boobs and trying to live a “regular” life. If I was in my risky, troublesome teen years and I was going through all of the BS that I’m going through now with my huge boobs, I’d be getting a total kick out of everything and there’s no way I’d be going smaller. But where I’m at in life now, and the more laid back, reserved and serious I’ve gotten since my teen years, I have a totally different mindset now and my safety is more important to me now. All women who go huge *I assume* aren’t going through everything I am…my situation is pretty extreme….so it may be way less drama that other women are going through….my case is just totally crazy/drama filled. I have stories that I could tell! Thinking about all of the situations and altercations that I’ve been going through…and all centering around my huge boobs….I could write a book, seriously.

So having boobs that aren’t too small (for me) but that are smaller than 2020cc will work out best for me! If you have any questions for me, just let me know. Thanks for reading all of this!


*PinkButterflyGlitter aka PBG*