From 1000cc--to 2020cc--to 800cc--to 1200-1400cc!

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

I’ve been visiting this site for years now, but I lurk way more than I post.

Anyway, I have 2020cc salines now but I’ll be downsizing and going with silicone next. I’ve been getting a lot of e-mails and questions about my situation and why I’m downsizing. So I thought I’d share my story here.

So here goes…..

First my stats: I’m 5’8”, normal weight is anywhere from 145-152lbs, 32” ribcage, natural 36D.

Now on to my story….I’ve always loved the huge, round, fake look…the bigger and faker looking the better is the way I saw it.

So in 2005 I had my first BA, along with a Crescent Lift….I got Inamed saline implants, round, smooth, overs, 800cc overfilled to 1000cc. I went from a natural 36D to a 36G. They looked great…big, round and fake looking – just how I like them. At that time though, I didn’t think they were big enough.

So in 2006, I had my second BA….enlarged my pockets and added more saline to my implants, all the way up to 2020cc! I went from a 36G to a 36H. I was huge!! In the beginning I was in love with them. They were amazing, beautiful, huge and fake looking. I totally loved them.

Then around 4-6 months post, I developed CC first in my right boob, then it spread to my left. As time went on, it got progressively worse in my right and a little bit worse in my left.

Fast forward to today….I’m almost 2 years post now…..the CC has gotten extremely bad on the right side and a little bit worse on the left side. At this point, the right side is very painful and both implants are ROCK HARD and just plain uncomfortable. I am miserable and extremely unhappy with my boobs. I am also getting really dissatisfied with the size as well. They are getting to be too cumbersome for me.

I still LOVE huge boobs (in the 2000cc range) but I have come to the conclusion that I love huge boobs on other women! I’d prefer to look at them, NOT live with them! While I still feel that this size looks good on me, it is just not practical living with such huge boobs on a day to day basis and leading a “normal, not-in-the-spotlight” life.

I’m not in the adult industry, I just got huge boobs for myself, not for anyone else or for a job or whatever. So literally going ANYWHERE…whether it be to the grocery store, mall, movies, out to dinner, the park, a club, the casino, walking around outside, ANYWHERE – guaranteed I will be gawked at, pointed at, laughed at, whispered about, stupid girls trying to fight me, sexual rude comments yelled out to me, guys purposely bumping into me in order to “cop a feel”…..seriously outrageous behavior like this I go through on a DAILY BASIS. I’m a very unique person (lots of piercings, tattoos, distinctive makeup, etc) so I’m used to being stared at and whispered about. But having huge boobs brings the attention to a whole different level. I’m the type of person who really doesn’t care about what other people think and who can ignore people for the most part, but after awhile if it becomes too ridiculous, it starts to eat at me and piss me off. Especially when I’m with kids, family or a friend and I get reactions like that – that’s when it’s totally crossing the line.

The only time I don’t get outrageous reactions is when I’m with my brother (who’s 6’4” and built) or I’m with my big bodybuilder male friends….then people will keep a lid on it. But when I’m by myself or with other girls, that’s when people act the worst.

I can deal with attention….like I said, I’ve been getting a lot of attention since I was a kid. But attention like this is unreal. I’ve been in so many scary, threatening situations with strange men before, I should seriously be walking around with a bodyguard every single day. Every day when I go out I feel like a celebrity who’s in the spotlight being trashed all the time….and not in a good spotlight, in a very bad spotlight. It’s not fun at all when it gets to be threatening. When I have children with me, I STILL get sexual comments thrown at me, which is outrageously inappropriate.

The way I dress is nowhere near over the top either…..I wear a lot of loose fitting t-shirts/layered polos/hooded sweatshirts, etc, and when I do wear tighter tops or tank tops, I always layer on 1 or 2 shirts and then usually I’ll even wear a cropped sweater/or cropped hoodie over the tight shirts so my boobs aren’t hanging out and exposed. From the crude reactions I get, you’d think I walk around naked or something, but I actually dress pretty conservative. I totally expect people to look because some people have never seen boobs my size before…..but looking is one thing, openly staring is another, and being downright stupid and nasty is beyond unacceptable.

Aside from the public’s ridiculous reactions….day to day living with 2020cc is a bit too much….they’re pretty heavy...and because they're so firm and un-squishable, they're uncomfortable to sleep with, intimate situations are a tad tricky, finding clothes that fit right is a nightmare, etc.

So because I have to get this CC fixed now, which will require another surgery, I want to switch to silicone and downsize. So for my third BA, I’ll be getting the CC fixed, getting a full lift, and switching these totally overfilled 2020cc salines out with Natrelle silicone gels Style 10, round, smooth, overs, 800cc.

That won’t be the end for me though….800cc is not my final desired size….that’s just the biggest size in silicone (off the shelf) that I can get right now. Eventually, I will be getting custom made silicone gels 1200-1400cc….which will give me the round, fake busty look that I love, but won’t take me too huge to where I can’t dress them down. I’m pretty tall and very curvy, so I need a lot of cc’s to make me busty…..not super huge….just nice and busty.

So, while this huge size didn’t personally work for me, I’m very happy that I got to try this size out and experience it for myself. If I had never went this big, I would’ve always wondered what it felt like. It just really sucks that I got CC so bad, because that’s what made the experience a lot worse as well.

Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to share my experience. For people who aren’t into the huge sizes and are just curious about women who go huge, then I hope my story helped some. And for women who are into the huge sizes, I’m definitely not trying to scare you away from going huge….that’s the last thing I’m trying to do actually…..I’m just sharing MY personal experience that *I’m* personally going through.

I still *LOVE* huge boobs most definitely, I think they are so damn gorgeous and sexy…. it just didn’t work out *for me* having huge boobs and trying to live a “regular” life. If I was in my risky, troublesome teen years and I was going through all of the BS that I’m going through now with my huge boobs, I’d be getting a total kick out of everything and there’s no way I’d be going smaller. But where I’m at in life now, and the more laid back, reserved and serious I’ve gotten since my teen years, I have a totally different mindset now and my safety is more important to me now. All women who go huge *I assume* aren’t going through everything I am…my situation is pretty extreme….so it may be way less drama that other women are going through….my case is just totally crazy/drama filled. I have stories that I could tell! Thinking about all of the situations and altercations that I’ve been going through…and all centering around my huge boobs….I could write a book, seriously.

So having boobs that aren’t too small (for me) but that are smaller than 2020cc will work out best for me! If you have any questions for me, just let me know. Thanks for reading all of this!


*PinkButterflyGlitter aka PBG*

[GrowingMyRoses]

Thank you for posting your story, it is slightly heartbreaking how mean other people can be for no good reason at all ! I wish you good luck with your upcoming surgery and hope you will get soft, squishy boobs with no CC.
Rosie

[Slinky]

Thanks for sharing your story so far. Wow - amazing to read about all the crap you've put up with, but I guess not too surprising. It sounds like you've really thought this out and know what you want for now. Wait till you get rid of the CC and have soft boobies again....... I think you will love that, too!

Slinky

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

Thanks so much Rosie! I am SO looking forward to soft, squishy boobs with no CC, I really hope it doesn't come back!!

Originally Posted by GrowingMyRoses

Thank you for posting your story, it is slightly heartbreaking how mean other people can be for no good reason at all ! I wish you good luck with your upcoming surgery and hope you will get soft, squishy boobs with no CC.
Rosie

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

Thanks so much Slinky!! I truly don't even remember how it feels to have soft boobs because I've been dealing with this CC for so long. I can't wait to be rid of it!

Originally Posted by Slinky

Thanks for sharing your story so far. Wow - amazing to read about all the crap you've put up with, but I guess not too surprising. It sounds like you've really thought this out and know what you want for now. Wait till you get rid of the CC and have soft boobies again....... I think you will love that, too!

Slinky

[brunettebeauty]

I can only imagine the BS you have out up with, I have 700 and I feel like I'm put on display when I go out, usually hater women! But one day I may go up to about 850 or 900 HP. For I too really love the fake round big boobies too. Thanks so much for sharing your story. When is your ba? You are probably gonna feel so small for a little while!LOL. Good Luck and thanks again!!

[titangirl]

Very interesting story....thanks for sharing! Good Luck with the new surgery and new soft boobies.

[Nanny66]

I loved reading your story, it does suck people judge like they have...I just wanted to wish you luck with your next op, and hope the future brings all you want it bring...good for you x

[wocky]

Hi PBG. Thanks for sharing your story! It was really eye-opening and I'm sorry that people around you have been so judgmental and nasty. It's sad how people think they have a God-given right to openly judge others who have made different choices. But, you sound like a strong woman and you are very comfortable with who you are, and what you like. I'm sorry to hear about the CC and I hope your next surgery will make you more comfortable! Welcome to the forum!

[JujuBee]

Thank you for posting your story.. My heart hurts for the trouble you have had to endure, by close minded ignorant people... Best of luck to you in your 3rd BA, and I hope you love your new boobs!! Keep us updated! Take care!

[hotmom143]

if big huge round fake boobs is what u want, thats what u should get no matter what. i think 800ccs silicone would look great..im sorry u had to go trough all that pain for so long. well i hope u get that fixed and become happy with ur results whatever they are. im sure they will look great! i liked ur story and it seems like more and more women these days want the biggest they can be and its not uncommon anymore. it sucks people judge so damn much but if it wasnt the size of ur boobs they would be judging, it would be something else like how tall/short u are, how heavy/small u are, so who cares what people think nobody like that will ever be satisfied with their bodys atleast you are!

[chickie32]

hi

i just wanted to say your story is one heck of an amazing journey, but so sorry to hear about the crap you had to go thru just to have your dream boobs. i wish you every luck in your upcoming BA, and will keep all my fingers and toes crossed for you that the CC won't come back. will you be having your redo w/your same plastic surgeon?

[mal27]

Hi. You will feel small with the 800 gels in the beginning. This looks interesting.
50% silicone outer and 50% saline inner implant. Becker double lumen.

[mal27]

http://beckerbreastsurgery.com/breas...adjustable.htm

[bella1124]

thanks for sharing your story!!! it was very honest and I'm sorry you went through all that!! Good luck with your surgery and i hope you are happy with how you look after..you will look great!! i think it is great to share that story for people who are going through the same thing as you!

[biggies]

hey I just want to say I hope you
finally become happy with your new
boobies...800cc will seem very small
to you...heck I could go with another
200cc and be totally fine with the size

Good luck !!!

Just wondering did you ever massage your
boobs ?

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

brunettebeauty - thanks so much! Yeah, women are the worst when it comes to being rude. It's so crazy.

I've been thinking that too.....going from 2020cc down to 800cc is going to be a huge step down in size for me, so that'll definitely take some getting used to. I'm thinking I'll be so happy with having soft, moveable, pain-free boobs that I won't even think about the size!!

Edit....I forgot to say that my BA date is not set yet, but I'm looking to do it either this month or next.

Originally Posted by brunettebeauty

I can only imagine the BS you have out up with, I have 700 and I feel like I'm put on display when I go out, usually hater women! But one day I may go up to about 850 or 900 HP. For I too really love the fake round big boobies too. Thanks so much for sharing your story. When is your ba? You are probably gonna feel so small for a little while!LOL. Good Luck and thanks again!!

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

Thanks so much titangirl, I really appreciate that !

Originally Posted by titangirl

Very interesting story....thanks for sharing! Good Luck with the new surgery and new soft
boobies.

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

Thanks so much Anne, I definitely appreciate that !!

Originally Posted by Anne

I loved reading your story, it does suck people judge like they have...I just wanted to wish you luck with your next op, and hope the future brings all you want it bring...good for you x

[PinkButterflyGlitter]

Thanks so much wocky, that was a very sweet message !!

Originally Posted by wocky

Hi PBG. Thanks for sharing your story! It was really eye-opening and I'm sorry that people around you have been so judgmental and nasty. It's sad how people think they have a God-given right to openly judge others who have made different choices. But, you sound like a strong woman and you are very comfortable with who you are, and what you like. I'm sorry to hear about the CC and I hope your next surgery will make you more comfortable! Welcome to the forum!