Early X-mas :)

[Cleavage1ady]

Well this is going to be my first post and i just cant wait to share.. Where shall i start? Well i guess the beginning would be the place.

Where it all started.
I would say that me wanting implants started in about jr. high. I know early right? Though it was too early to even fathom how my little breasts would play after puberty, big breasts were always a dream. Being surrounded by girls who went through puberty early, only increased my anxiety. In high school I did cheerleading to try to help with my self-esteem issues. It worked and though I may not have been the prettiest or curviest girl in school I had tons of friends and lots of boyfriends.

The plateau..
So after high school reality struck me hard. Here I was a 5'1 young adult with the body of a 12 year old boy. NOT CUTE. So I tried different things to increase my bust line. I tried herbal supplements which didn't work. I tried gaining a few pounds, that didn't work and increased my anxiety issues about my body.
I was shocked when I realized there were millions of girls in my same position. I found hundreds of forums with girls who were trying to find an alternative way of growing boobs up to forums telling you how to fake what you don't have with inserts.
Then a tv show shown on BBC caught my eye, a documentary called I hate my small breasts or something like that. And a woman used a device which was used like a breast pump and was supposedly to help natural breast tissue growth. Though a few inches may not sound like a lot, a little is always more when you start from nothing. So I tired that process and grew a few inches only to see it disappear after a few days without pumping (bummer).

The spiral down
While the breast pumping alternative was at play, I found a new hobby, which was modeling. Though I may not be a high fashion model, being in front of a photographer and doing different promo gigs brought back that confidence I had in high school. Then when I got into car shows and other events I saw that the really successful women were big busted beauties. Though I started confident at first, realizing I couldn't keep up with these women I started breaking myself down. Analyzing and negatively critiquing everything about myself. I found myself to be smaller then a pin head.

Finding myself..
I stopped modeling for a while and met my dear bf who loved me for me. He helped me bring back my happiness and confidence. But I still felt like I lacked something else. That was the only time i realized, I needed to get my BA not because i wasn't confident but because I wanted to be happy with MYSELF. I wanted to be comfortable with my body and never think twice about what I lacked.

and now:
So at the end of September I accompanied my best friend to her first ever breast consultation. Before this date I was to chicken to make my own consultation, I figured what better way to experience it then with my best friend. And as soon as we got to the office the nurse asked if I'd like to have a complimentary consultation too. She asked us a few questions and allowed us to try out some implants while we waited for the plastic surgeon.
We originally wanted to each get 600 cc and planned the week of new years to be our deadline for our surgery. We wanted to get them done together.

But boobie greed got a hold of me and I scheduled my surgery for 10/21/2009.

Fast forward to the date. My wonderful bf brought me to the plastic surgeon office around 1 p.m.(killed me not eating for more then 12 hours). We waited for about an hour before I got to go into the prep room.. me and my love said our goodbyes. In the prep room the nurse came in and asked me a few questions, took a pregnancy test(negative of course). Then off to the surgery room we went.. The thing i was scared of most was the IV. O how I dreaded the IV... So when the nurse said that it would be fast and simple I was prepared for it. She found a vein close to a major blood vessel, that every time my heart would pump it would stop the drip. This she said wasn't right?? wtf? how can you stab me in the wrong spot. So she tried again on my hand which she said would hurt worst( o great). The second time was even worst I felt the tubing curl on my upper wrist and i just moaned in pain. Finally the plastic surgeon came in and simple as one two three got the iv in. Less then ten minutes later i was passed out..
I awoke in the post op room and it was wonderful, no pain, and i was just in a little dream land.
I vaguely remember going home where I just slept the rest of the night.

The next day..
I had my post-op visit where my plastic surgeon said I was healing wonderfully, I was telling him that I looked so teeny . He said to be patient and wait until I dropped. Lol I was so excited to see the new girls. They were so big and swollen still not that much pain. But i spoke to soon. Next thing you know the plastic surgeon showed me how to massage my new implants and it really felt like he ripped out my heart.. lol..

Today:
Last night I felt the worst pain ever and my dbf tried to comfort me but just seemed to make it worst. But after going back to sleep and waking up a little foggy I feel great. even wonderful... would I do it again in a heart beat.
Hopefully I won't have to go through any complications or anything for a long long time.. CROSS YOUR FINGERS

Sorry if I don't make any sense or used run on sentences.. keep in mind i'm drugged up in a good way.. lol
Thanks for reading my story.!!

[jamsmak04]

Congrats!!! Thats awesome. I think day 2 and 3 are the worst. I know it worked like that even for my revision that I just had on tuesday. Wed and thursday were the worst and now I am all better. Wishing you a fast recovery!!!

[PDS]

I used to worry about the position I slept in while I was a teenager. I thought if I slept on my stomach, my boobs wouldn't grow b/c they would be squished and if I slept on my back they wouldn't grow because gravity would suck them back in! I would pray every night that I would be a good Christian girl if God only gave me some beautiful boobies! Well...almost 20 years later I'll be getting those lovely boobies!!!

Good luck with your recovery! I'm excited for you!

[lolita]

wow thats a great story i think alot of us can relate to that! still waiting for my boobies ,i hope i get them for christmas!

[bunnygirl]

Thank you for sharing your story and congrats! I wish I could schedule my BA sooner. Best wishes for a smooth recovery!

[sweetm]

Congrats on the BA! Best wishes with your recovery.

[lucygirl]

Thanks for sharing your BA story!! Congrats on getting the girls ahead of schedule, I hope your recovery continues to go well!

[iLove]

Aww, really sweet story which I can completely relate to It's amazing what us girls will try when we are desperate for boobs, and congratulations your decision to get BA, I have made that decision for the exact same reasons, I want to be happy with myself and walk down the street feeling confident about myself.
Wishing you a quick and happy recovery, enjoy your new boobs!

[expatbrat]

Great story! Heres to a smooth and complication free recovery!