I want to explant

[Barbara Ann]

I'm really sorry that you've had issues. We all go into this knowing the risks and complications can happen, but we hope, hope and hope it won't. My concern for you is your thoughts of suicide.....please do not take that lightly and I would suggest talking to a professional about your feelings, not just the suicide thoughts. The girls on here can offer advice, love, and support, but I think you need to talk it out with someone. I say all this in love and concern for you. I wish you well.

Barbara

[mai52takn]

(((hugs)))

Im so sorry to hear how this has made your emotions on a craze. Although, I completely understand. I would be the same way. We are always our worst critics. I am one that will pick myself apart to pieces, hubby never gets it.

Did you meet with your plastic surgeon and tell him your thoughts? I know money or what to spend is an issue... and it would be for me to. However, I would probably go to another plastic surgeon and go for it. I know I would have to or Id beat myself up over why didnt it, I should have etc. Thats just me.

You have to make the decision for yourself, but that is my opinion and what I would do - or try to do.

You must know, that you are absolutely beautiful. I think your breasts are beautiful, and not as bad as you probably see when you look at them. You have a hot body, a beautiful face. The breasts are just an add on to all the rest, that is already so rockin!

Hang in there girl! Try to smile, you are much too beautiful not to smile!

[sweet_wench]

My heart bleeds for you, I so wish one person did not have to Indore so much,but then only the strong are give this much, so we already know how wonderfully strong you are, even when your not feeling it,
are you going back to the same plastic surgeon? if I recall correct, you are, would you feel better with a totally new plastic surgeon ? one who specialize in this? I also recall the comments DH has made, and if he also see's how empty you are right now maybe he will start to see the light and how no money is to much for you to regain your happiness..
i have thought for a while you should NOT go back to the same plastic surgeon as the first times,,
good luck your in my thoughts

[Rosebud11]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I think you should go with the smaller implants and the lift...if you don't try it, you will never know if it will work or not. It could be just what you need.

My left side was naturally higher and smaller and after my BA it still is...boobs are not perfect...and we are our own worst critics. I think yours look pretty good. I will probably try one more time to have my left side look more like my right. As much as I hate having surgery again, I feel I need to try.

Don't let this get you down...I think you look great.

[Genie]

So sorry you're having such a hard time. Since your body seems to be unable to hold up the implant, has your plastic surgeon mentioned getting overs?? You won't have to worry about bottoming out (I don't think).

[jewel04]

sent a FR to see your albums...i'm sure they aren't as bad as you think!!

hugs to you and hope all works out for you!

[goldengurls]

I think you should talk to someone before you take another big step.

I had a full anchor lift and didn't want the scars, but ya know I look great and better than before so you have to decide what will be good for you.

You look great nowwwwwwwwwwwww................ we are our own worse critics.........

I never thought I would get thru the ordeal I went thru. I would go weeks without looking in the mirror....... and omggggggggg coming on here and seeing perfect boobs made me sick...... I am not in my 20's 30's or 40's. I had extra skin.

I had to come to the belief I look great........... I am perky and so what I have scars you can barely see and I am not married..... so other men in my life will see those scars........... oh well...........

(((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by jewel04

sent a FR to see your albums...i'm sure they aren't as bad as you think!!

hugs to you and hope all works out for you!

I took down most of my pics I have pics that show how bad it really is but I don't post it to embarassing.

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by goldengurls

I think you should talk to someone before you take another big step.

I had a full anchor lift and didn't want the scars, but ya know I look great and better than before so you have to decide what will be good for you.

You look great nowwwwwwwwwwwww................ we are our own worse critics.........

I never thought I would get thru the ordeal I went thru. I would go weeks without looking in the mirror....... and omggggggggg coming on here and seeing perfect boobs made me sick...... I am not in my 20's 30's or 40's. I had extra skin.

I had to come to the belief I look great........... I am perky and so what I have scars you can barely see and I am not married..... so other men in my life will see those scars........... oh well...........

(((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))

Ya know I am in my 30's and I know I have alot of skin but I never expect to have this sag on my right side or the bottoing out ... The scars are makinf me vert nervous and the thought of adding the scars and the lift not working and I become droopy and stretch right out agian is my biggest fear...

[saraj]

Hi.

I sent a FR.

I haven't seen your pictures yet but I know they are not bad enough to warrant suicide or feeling so depressed. I know its hard to fight those feelings when you have them, but its true.

I've read that woman with BA's have a higher % rate of suicide. Its probably because we are already so critical of our bodies. I wonder if most woman here would consider themselves perfectionist. I know I am. so its easy for things to seem imperfect when always striving and looking for perfection.

How far out are you from your last surgery? I know after my 2, I went through a period of "baby blues" or depression. Not sure what causes it but it felt like the baby blues after giving birth. I was depressed. Only time and accepting my imperfect breasts, have I felt myself again. I know in time I will go back in to fix my ripples, but now is not the time. I feel like my old self again.

Have you considered talking to a therapist? Maybe you should treat the depression along with looking into another surgery? I would try going smaller with a lift before explanting but I suggest, only in the nicest way, that you get yourself in a better, emotional state BEFORE the surgery. These surgeries do cause a period of "boobie blues" and it would be a huge emotional strain on you if the next surgery does not come out as you plan.

[dkh1971]

((((( HUGS )))))

I honestly don't think you look bad. I would take your breasts over mine any day. You and I have very similar before photos and it's clear that your right breast (and my left breast) had more natural tissue to start with. My plastic surgeon gave me 25cc more in the breast with less tissue, but it still looks smaller. She warned me that my after boobs would look like my befores, but larger. My problem is that my smaller breast is also stuck up higher.

I think your breasts look great. They both dropped nicely and to me, have a gorgeous natural sag to them that is fitting for a woman your age. I love my saggier breast with more tissue and you hate yours.... I do think that a smaller implant and a lift would work wonders. I would make sure that the plastic surgeon lifted the right more than the left to make them symmetrical.

I do think that you need to take a step back and stop over analyzing your breasts. You are your worst critic. I would also talk to someone other than your plastic surgeon about your depression and suicidal thoughts. You can get through this.

[jamsmak04]

Hun you sound exactly like me and your pic does not look bad at all, they look great. I too think mine look bad but I am willing to bet alot of women would happy with them. I had alot of problems with mine before my revision, like the nipple was off center, tonnes of rippling and massive size difference and the implant never dropped. I had my revision and now there is a tiny size difference but to me its so bad that thoughts of explants and just dieing have come to mind, and they still do. Its hard but we judge ourselves way too much and you cannot do that. If you feel an explant would fix how you feel then do it, but after an explant are you still going to be in that mirror picking out your flaws? I know I would so I will not do an explant, I will take my big ones with assymetry over my tiny ones with assymetry. Goodluck sending big hugs your way.

[beckybee]

I agree with what so many others are saying...we are our own worst critics, we focus on ourselves such that every little anomaly or asymmetry appears 10x bigger and it would probably help you to speak with a counselor or pastor, or someone who can give you one on one time.

However, I feel for you and empathize with what you are going through. It's really tough, especially after two surgeries. You just look at things differently after two surgeries and a third looks somewhat scary to someone who is thoughtful in nature and doesn't take things lightly.

If I were you, I'd probably go smaller with a lift and take the chance, but I've had a lift and that appears to be what is scaring you also. If I felt really uncomfortable with the implants in general and the whole experience, I'd seek counsel, and if I still felt that way, I'd explant.

Because of the drama, senselessness and ridiculousness of my first BA experience, I automatically consider explant from time to time, and I think about what I will do if I need a redo in the future...will I change implants and get another lift or will I just lift them, live with them and be done with implants?

I say give yourself some time to process this with a counselor or friend and then try to make the most informed decision you can. And, if you ever need anything, just PM me.

[VisionQuest]

Oh Catnip I hate to see you so upset to the point you are thinking about this but I so understand since at one point when my cc was really bad there were times when I so regreted ever getting my BA since it had caused me nothing but stress and frustration. But I do think that we do look in the mirror each day as women do and pic ourselves apart or I know I do I have such low self esteem, I think you need to do whats best for you and you need to think long and hard before doing anything I understand you finding it hard to believe a 3rd surgery will work for you since 1 and 2 did not but it might Like I told my DH one day when I was upset and wanted my Pre BA boobs back this was about 2 months ago I guess they were ugly and flat but they did not cause me the stress that I had gone thru these past couple of months and he agreed with me.
I want to send support in whatever choice you make whether it be to go back to natural or take anther surgery chance it a hard choice to make. HUGS

[La Mob]

I don't have any wise words for you, I just wanted to send you a hug and some positive thoughts.

I also looked at your pics and think that the photo shoot you had done looks fantastic. I also can see the uneven size between the two and can see the droopiness you are talking about, and I admit it would make me crazy as well. I don't know if explant is the answer, that might just leave you more unhappy in the long run. I would think that a smaller CC with a lift would work, but I also really thought the internal sutures would work on the redo as well.

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better for you. I can tell you this, you are absolutely beautiful, no matter how your breasts end up.

[JayJgirls]

See here is the crazy thing I never stood infront of the mirror and picked at myself before my BA.... I just said one day I will get the guts to find a great plastic surgeon who can make these boobies better... But now I look at the uneveness and the droop all the time and it makes me so sad... Something that I thought would be such a postive change has not turned out that way at all... I was not depressed at all before my BA ... I was going to gym eating right my body looked good I was at a very happy point, but then agian I went thru with a BA and it ampifiled I guess my flaws and I wish I never did it if that makes sense.... Thats why I think explanting might help with my emotional feelings before my BA I did not cry all the time I was motivated I got up out of bed I took care of my kids I engaged in social situations... Now I avoid anything that woould require a bathing suit it's awful and it's destroying me and I have no one to talk to about this just so sad!!!!

[armybabe]

oh I feel so bad for you that your not happy. Honestly I think you look pretty good to me. But I know what your talking about I hated my pre ba boobs so saggy didnt want to put on a bathing suit cause of lose skin and having to try to push them up. I didnt think i needed a lift I went in to plastic surgeon thinking of only a ba and we were thinking ok maybe $5,000 at most. Well plastic surgeon said $8000 cause i needed the lift and if I didnt do it I wouldnt be happy with results of just a ba I told my husband we have 2 small kids just bought a new big house and that money is alot that I didnt need a ba/bl right now but he new how much happier i would be so he said go ahead and do it you deserve to be happy. I was so scared of the lift cause the plastic surgeon said I need a full anchor and all I could think about are omg im gonna have nasty scars and my dh wont want to look at me is this worth it. But I couldnt be happier right now the scars are doing really good and I thought the only one whos gonna see them are me and my dh and they arent that bad one you d&f and settle the scars are underneath. Just make sure to take care of yourself. I know i rambled on sorry but just wanted to let you know your not alone and theres always someone to talk to on this forum, always willing to let an ear or eye lol since were on internet . Best of luck with what you decide and many hugs

[daisydog]

Originally Posted by MissPriss

In all honesty i dont think they are half as bad as you think they are. I know you have been going thru some s**t with these boobs, and my heart really goes out to you. I can say that if it were me id probably go ahead and get the smaller implants/lift. But again, this is what I would do...you will have to make that decision based on what you want and what you think you can handle. I know how we are our own worst critics and the slightest things look 1,000 times worse to us. I think its worth another shot, dont give up hope. Best of luck and huge hugs sweetie!

Originally Posted by bb8

I wish there was something magical to say to make you feel better. So sorry you're feeling so down. ): I've been in that place before where my eyes feel hollow and like there's nothing left. Not a good place to be. The mind is so powerful. Try to think of all that is positive in your life and focus on that. You are changing the negative. It's just going to take some time. Be patient and keep in mind that this will pass. It'll get better hun. Just hang in there!

I really agree with these post. They said what I want to say.

Reading this post was hard. Because I have gotten to know you on a personal level. I am sorry your going through such a hard time. I really wish there was a way that I could help you because I would be there in a second doing what I could. I wish there was a magic wand to wave (I really could use that wand myself). We truly are our worest critic. I know your worried about the scars but they fade. My yr old scars are fading & almost gone. I held off having surgery for over a year because of fear of scars. Then I got to see someone's lift scars in person & next thing I am booking my surgery. These scars are a trade off to have better boobs. You truly are a beautiful person with a AWESOME body. Your boobs do look great. I truly do believe going in for a smaller implant & lift will help you. You are a strong person & I wish you could see what we all see. Lots of HUGS!!! You know if there is anything that I can do just ask. (((HUGS)))

[daisydog]

Originally Posted by dkh1971

((((( HUGS )))))

I honestly don't think you look bad. I would take your breasts over mine any day. You and I have very similar before photos and it's clear that your right breast (and my left breast) had more natural tissue to start with. My plastic surgeon gave me 25cc more in the breast with less tissue, but it still looks smaller. She warned me that my after boobs would look like my befores, but larger. My problem is that my smaller breast is also stuck up higher.

I think your breasts look great. They both dropped nicely and to me, have a gorgeous natural sag to them that is fitting for a woman your age. I love my saggier breast with more tissue and you hate yours.... I do think that a smaller implant and a lift would work wonders. I would make sure that the plastic surgeon lifted the right more than the left to make them symmetrical.

I do think that you need to take a step back and stop over analyzing your breasts. You are your worst critic. I would also talk to someone other than your plastic surgeon about your depression and suicidal thoughts. You can get through this.

This is another post.

[VisionQuest]

Originally Posted by catnip621

See here is the crazy thing I never stood infront of the mirror and picked at myself before my BA.... I just said one day I will get the guts to find a great plastic surgeon who can make these boobies better... But now I look at the uneveness and the droop all the time and it makes me so sad... Something that I thought would be such a postive change has not turned out that way at all... I was not depressed at all before my BA ... I was going to gym eating right my body looked good I was at a very happy point, but then agian I went thru with a BA and it ampifiled I guess my flaws and I wish I never did it if that makes sense.... Thats why I think explanting might help with my emotional feelings before my BA I did not cry all the time I was motivated I got up out of bed I took care of my kids I engaged in social situations... Now I avoid anything that woould require a bathing suit it's awful and it's destroying me and I have no one to talk to about this just so sad!!!!

That is exactly like me did I stand in front of a mirror pre-BA NO I agree 100% but I did hate my pre-BA boobs or I should say I was embarrassed by them in the summer in tight tees but they did not cause me the emotional roller coaster I have been on since June my roller coaster of course is nothing compared to yours who knows what my thoughts would be like if I had gone thru all that you have. I think you are a very strong women to have gone thru all that you have and I am sending you another Big Hug