I want to explant

[saraj]

Originally Posted by catnip621

See here is the crazy thing I never stood infront of the mirror and picked at myself before my BA.... I just said one day I will get the guts to find a great plastic surgeon who can make these boobies better... But now I look at the uneveness and the droop all the time and it makes me so sad... Something that I thought would be such a postive change has not turned out that way at all... I was not depressed at all before my BA ... I was going to gym eating right my body looked good I was at a very happy point, but then agian I went thru with a BA and it ampifiled I guess my flaws and I wish I never did it if that makes sense.... Thats why I think explanting might help with my emotional feelings before my BA I did not cry all the time I was motivated I got up out of bed I took care of my kids I engaged in social situations... Now I avoid anything that woould require a bathing suit it's awful and it's destroying me and I have no one to talk to about this just so sad!!!!

I saw your picture and I THINK YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. please, please be nice to yourself!!!!

I was JUST like you. Never picked apart my breasts prior to surgery. Just thought they were so itty, bitty teeny, tiny breasts. But after....pictures, rulers, measuring tape, getting DH and friends opinions. The whole 9 yards. All it did was drive myself crazy and back into the OR room to tweak them.

I've accepted my breasts now. I have ripples. My right goes to the right more. THEY ARE NOT PERFECT. and I know that even if I go back in, they still won't be.

BUT WHO CARES? My husband? no, he still finds me attractive. My friends? they don't, they still love me. My kids? will always love me. Strangers? who cares, all they see are perfect breasts through clothes.

There is a saying, which I love...There is perfection in imperfections. Nothing is perfect in life, nature. yet look around, imbalance makes beauty.And if that does not convince you, look at famous models...they are NOT perfect. Tyra Banks has a big forward, still beautiful. Giesel has a big nose, still gorgeous, Kate Moss...no breasts, still beautiful.

Please be kind to yourself....you are beautiful.

[dkh1971]

Originally Posted by catnip621

See here is the crazy thing I never stood infront of the mirror and picked at myself before my BA.... I just said one day I will get the guts to find a great plastic surgeon who can make these boobies better...

SAME HERE!!! I knew that my right breast was smaller, but I had no idea my creases or uneven or that one breast had more tissue until my plastic surgeon pointed it out to me. Getting your boobs done does magnify your flaws. It's been a slow process for me, but I am learning to love mine as they are. Should I have another surgery, I will go with less projection (not less diameter) and get a Benelli lift. Until them, I will try to love what I have as they are now part of me.

[spicygirl]

First of all I'm going to tell you that you do look great even with the things that are bothering you and just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I have been going through the exact same extreme emotions. I've probably cried more in the last 5 months than in my entire life. I was very motivated before BA. Going to the gym, eating right, enjoying my children etc. But now I fight depression, anxiety, can't eat(dropped down to 88 lbs.) Think about my boobs 24/7 it's exhausting. I feel like I paid someone $8400 to be a basketcase. For some reason I think it's easier to except the flaws we had b4that were given to us naturally for free versus the ones we pay for. What helps me get thru the days though is forcing myself to focus on the positives in my life and keep myself busy doing the things I enjoyed before BA. (It's hard, cause you feel like you don't have the strength sometimes...right?) There is no amount of money or boobs worth making us not enjoy life and family as we should. Surround yourself with people you love. DH keeps telling me to remember things will eventually work out. It may take longer than we wanted but eventually it does workout. So try to hang in there, I'm here for any support you need.

[sumall]

I can feel your emotion and I know telling you how beautiful you are is not going to help, because you don't see it. I wish you could, but right now you're choosing not to acknowledge it.

That's okay... you've got a lot of things running through your head... all of this stress and the worry about what may or may not happen. You had an expectation of what your BA results would be, for round 1 and round 2. Both times brought disappointment. So it's understandable that you're scared and doubtful that round 3 will be any different.

All you can do at this point is take control of what you can:

(1) plastic surgeon - is he the one you trust?
(2) Revision - size, method, lift, etc. Be an active participant in these decisions and listen to the suggestions of your plastic surgeon.
(3) Explant - research the option in depth, talk with your DH, plastic surgeon, and make an informed decision on whether this is the right decision for you.

Then you can feel confident that you you made the right decision. What are your expectations? Throw them out the window -- because the outcome is unknown.

At the end of the day, you're either going to have boobs or not -- and you're going to decide whether you like them or not.

I understand your frustration and depression. I'm sending a thousand hugs your way and hope that you feel comfort in the support you find here.

Start focusing on your priorities, the things you're thankful for, and the things that bring you joy. Time should be valued and spent on the things that matter. Don't let the other stuff suck your spirit away. It's too beautiful and too special to be occupied by any insecurities.

Make a decision today to regain your spirit, get the dazzle back to your eyes, and love the ones you love. You'll be okay and happiness will find you soon!

[Lea69]

As others have said I don't think your boobs are anywhere as bad as you think they are....which doesn't really help you I know - what you see is what you see and how you feel is how you feel and not a lot is going to change that.

I wouldn't explant. That's not going to help you. Depending on how much more $ you're willing to drop on this, you need to find a surgeon who pretty much specializes in revisions and problem boobs etc and let him fix it. I can't see how this can be so hard to fix, I cannot accept that any plastic surgeon worth his or her salt would say "can't be done" - it's SO doable!! Seriously?? I mean, they are never going to match 100 %, boobs rarely do, but surely it can't be that hard to make your boobs look more even? Maybe I'm looking at it too simplistically, but your boobs do NOT look "that" bad (in fact, both boobs in their own right are relatively awesome in my opinion, they just need tweaking a bit).

As others have said, you need to focus on the positive. I know how easy it is to let this stuff consume you and get to you and make you feel like you're the most unlucky person on earth, and how damn frustrating it is, but it IS fixable, and you WILL get through this, there are much much worse things that could happen. It's just a hump in the road, honestly.

[phc_1992]

So sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

FR sent.....

HUGS!!!

[Sunshinegirl80]

I'm so sorry that you feel that you need to explant them. I don't think they look all that bad. But I too have had my fair share in complications. I have had 5 surgeries to correct CC. Finally I did explant my right breast implant for 5 1/2 months to let my body heal correctly. It was the best thing I ever did. I put my implant back in and no CC. My right breast is doing so great. My plastic surgeon and I really went back and forth about doing this. I'm so glad we did it. I now have the breasts that I dreamed of. And like you I was worried about "what if another complication" finally I just said if it's meant to be it will be. Believe me I was scarred sh*tless. I don't have bad scars and I used the same incision all 6 surgeries.
I wish you all the best.

[WildBerry]

i have a question. the more surgeries you have (using the same scars) is there increase of numbness lasting forever?

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by WildBerry

i have a question. the more surgeries you have (using the same scars) is there increase of numbness lasting forever?

well for me I only had one side reoperated on so..... IDK... I need a lift and numbness is a risk reguard less ain't it??

[Sunshinegirl80]

Originally Posted by WildBerry

i have a question. the more surgeries you have (using the same scars) is there increase of numbness lasting forever?

I have no numbness. I have not lost sensation either.

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by Sunshinegirl80

I'm so sorry that you feel that you need to explant them. I don't think they look all that bad. But I too have had my fair share in complications. I have had 5 surgeries to correct CC. Finally I did explant my right breast implant for 5 1/2 months to let my body heal correctly. It was the best thing I ever did. I put my implant back in and no CC. My right breast is doing so great. My plastic surgeon and I really went back and forth about doing this. I'm so glad we did it. I now have the breasts that I dreamed of. And like you I was worried about "what if another complication" finally I just said if it's meant to be it will be. Believe me I was scarred sh*tless. I don't have bad scars and I used the same incision all 6 surgeries.
I wish you all the best.

OMG 6 sugeries how the heck did you hold up... I am emotionally a mess after 2.. Can't stand it!!!!!! I can't imagine looking in the mirror and saying these are the boobs I dreamed off... Wow good for you... I can only hope

[WildBerry]

wow. I am still numb 4 months later every once in a while i think i feel my nipple but NOPE

[xxStellaxx]

I agree with everyone else. I think your boobs look good. I would do whatever you think it takes to make YOU happy. Best wishes!

[delia21]

Sweety...things are not as bad as you see them! IMO you should think such a decision over and over again. Why not just go a tad smaller if you think you feel better that way. I think you do look hot but of course what matters mmost is the way you feel. However I doubt that an explant and small boobies again would make you that happy for real...Good luck with your decision, but ddef take your time! Sending you tons of positive vibes!

[Nikki]

I have to agree with MissPriss. Your breasts do not look anywhere NEAR as bad as you think. In fact, I think they look great!!! Yes, the left is bottoming out, but I have seen bottoming out cases SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much worse than yours. It should be easy to fix the bottoming out. Getting smaller implants means less weight, which reduces the risk of bottoming out.

I think you're being waaaayyyy to hard on yourself. I know what it's like to have a complication. I had cc in my right breast twice. For a total combined time of 1.5 years, my right implant was up in my collarbone, and that breast was shaped like a rectangle turned on it's side. It was like a big long square. I wasn't happy, but I knew when I had the surgery that there was a risk of complication, and I took that risk. The problem that you have can be fixed. And it shouldn't even be hard to do. Looks like a straightforward bottoming out repair to me.

Ease up on yourself. Also know that while plastic surgeon's can do wonders, they're not God. They can make us look much better, but they will never guarantee perfection. I don't know if you're looking for that or not, but if you are, then you have expectations that no surgeon can meet.

If you could get the bottoming out repaired, would you like your breasts? Or do you just not like the implants at all?

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by Nikki

If you could get the bottoming out repaired, would you like your breasts? Or do you just not like the implants at all?

Thanks Nikki... No I am not looking for perfection just better... When I went into m revision in June I said to my plastic surgeon I love my Left just fix my right to match my left and I will be on my way... So he did it looked good for 4 weeks I was so happy thought I am almost thru this then it droop bottomed out agian.... I don't know why my tissues are failing, cause everything else on body seems good.. I take care of my body I go o the gym ya know.. I do like my implants but not all the lax skin that drapes over them and causes the sag...

[libra]

But isn't the excess skin from the extreme amount of weight you have lost? Wouldn't that have to be a separate surgery in itself?
I hope everything workd out for you. I went clothes shopping for the first time today (almost 2 weeks PO) and I hated everything on me !!!! My boobs seem huge I don't want t hate them now that I decided to go bigger UGH!!!

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by libra

But isn't the excess skin from the extreme amount of weight you have lost? Wouldn't that have to be a separate surgery in itself?
I hope everything workd out for you. I went clothes shopping for the first time today (almost 2 weeks PO) and I hated everything on me !!!! My boobs seem huge I don't want t hate them now that I decided to go bigger UGH!!!

Sorry you don't like the bigger size.... Well my pre BA pics I has some skin but the weight of the implant really exaggerated it... So I don't know!!

[GoodKarma]

I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I am having my frustrations too. I am sending a FR to see your photos. Also, have you decided going to a different plastic surgeon for your revision?

Sendings hugs

[shiningstar]

Hi Hun,
Sorry you feel so sad...I know how you feel I have live my whole life disliking my breasts due to a developmental "alteration".I have finally come to the decision to fix it and I have research all kinds of options and solutions in case my body ended up rejecting the implant,immune issues etc...we never know each woman's body reacts differently.I think I would feel the same way(since it will be your 3rd surgery)I can relate to you being a mommy there's even more worries about going under anesthesia.I wanted to share with you that due to me reading and freaking out about so many outcomes and options I know there is a doctor in florida who does explant with minimal scarring(I think is only around the areola but he has this technique that is virtually invisible)and he also has his procedure so you will look great after the explant by using the side of your breasts.I think it will be a great choice if it will give you your health back,nice final results with some augmentation.You can see the pics I think the ladies look great!Here is the dr. link:
http://www.informiv.co.uk/clientsamp...gmentation.php
Now if you decide to replace the implants I will suggest you look into subfascial placement:
http://www.beckermd.com/index.php/ge...south-florida/
There are doctors who do the subfascial placement that may be in your area(sorry did not check which state you live in)just make sure is real subfascial placement,which is complete under the lining above the muscle and no partials is not overs (it seems to be some misunderstanding on that).
Another choice is the new assisted fat transfer (with stem cell assited that will give like 75-90% fat survival)that may help if you would like more augmentation.There is a doctor in the northeast,I recall another in Arizona ..mmm well anyways if you interesting on that I can look it up again and send you the link.I know trans fat has its cons but it seems they improved the fat survival and others you can look further into it if it is of your interested and weight your options.
Wherever you do just know there is always a way.I know its hard as you feel right now but cheer up, hun!
You are a very strong beautiful woman.
Have a nice day

Originally Posted by catnip621

I think about my boobs everyday about how much I HATE them I think they are too big and they just don't match and the bottoming out is gross, it by far the worst thing I could have ever done to myself... I have been told that a lift and smaller implants could help... I have also been told that I need to accept my breasts as they may never be what I want... I had such bad boobie depression that I laid around the house for weeks not eating not sleeping spending countless hours on JBI just soul searching... I even tought about suicide but I know I would not even try, but the thought that I thought it was crazy... My DH broke down one night and said ever since my BA my eyes are hollow and I am just sooo sad...

I am so afraid to get this next BA I can't handle another dissapointment agian... what if my nips come out google eyed or if my incisions look like frankensteins sister what if I get 2 different heights agian I just can't handle the boob rollercoaster... I as so sick to my stomach thinking about this.....

Than I think maybe I should explant they would look ugly but they would not be lopsided in a bathing suit and they won't be DD's attracting attention... Please help... if these boobs were yours what would you do!!!

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