I want to explant

[JayJgirls]

I think about my boobs everyday about how much I HATE them I think they are too big and they just don't match and the bottoming out is gross, it by far the worst thing I could have ever done to myself... I have been told that a lift and smaller implants could help... I have also been told that I need to accept my breasts as they may never be what I want... I had such bad boobie depression that I laid around the house for weeks not eating not sleeping spending countless hours on JBI just soul searching... I even tought about suicide but I know I would not even try, but the thought that I thought it was crazy... My DH broke down one night and said ever since my BA my eyes are hollow and I am just sooo sad...

I am so afraid to get this next BA I can't handle another dissapointment agian... what if my nips come out google eyed or if my incisions look like frankensteins sister what if I get 2 different heights agian I just can't handle the boob rollercoaster... I as so sick to my stomach thinking about this.....

Than I think maybe I should explant they would look ugly but they would not be lopsided in a bathing suit and they won't be DD's attracting attention... Please help... if these boobs were yours what would you do!!!

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[MissPriss]

In all honesty i dont think they are half as bad as you think they are. I know you have been going thru some s**t with these boobs, and my heart really goes out to you. I can say that if it were me id probably go ahead and get the smaller implants/lift. But again, this is what I would do...you will have to make that decision based on what you want and what you think you can handle. I know how we are our own worst critics and the slightest things look 1,000 times worse to us. I think its worth another shot, dont give up hope. Best of luck and huge hugs sweetie!

[StarrLove]

FR sent...so sorry to hear you feel this way!

[bb8]

I wish there was something magical to say to make you feel better. So sorry you're feeling so down. ): I've been in that place before where my eyes feel hollow and like there's nothing left. Not a good place to be. The mind is so powerful. Try to think of all that is positive in your life and focus on that. You are changing the negative. It's just going to take some time. Be patient and keep in mind that this will pass. It'll get better hun. Just hang in there!

[taydev]

Im so sorry to hear about ur boobie heart break! i do understand as you took a risk with your body AND money! many times redo's work out really well but do what you feel is best for your body and mental state of it all. I really hope that whatever you decide you will be happy. my heart truly goes out to you!

[rosendarryl]

I am sorry that you are feeling so down. Just remember to look on the bright side of things, and don't ever give up. Hope you come up with a way to be happy.... Till then we are all here to support you......

[StarrLove]

Originally Posted by MissPriss

In all honesty i dont think they are half as bad as you think they are. I know you have been going thru some s**t with these boobs, and my heart really goes out to you. I can say that if it were me id probably go ahead and get the smaller implants/lift. But again, this is what I would do...you will have to make that decision based on what you want and what you think you can handle. I know how we are our own worst critics and the slightest things look 1,000 times worse to us. I think its worth another shot, dont give up hope. Best of luck and huge hugs sweetie!

I couldn't agree more with this post. I've said it many times...we are our own worst critics! However, at the end of the day your mental and emotional well-being is what comes first! If it's at the point where you're not eating, sleeping, loving life...than you need to decide what's best for you. I understand why you are so hesitant, scared, anxious, etc. but I think you should give it one last shot and like MissPriss said, go with a smaller implant and a lift. I hope whatever you decide at the end of the day makes you happy again!

[titangirl]

I dont think they look bad but I do see where the one (to my right) is bigger - Could you just reduce the cc's in it and get scutres put in it to hold and then be all good - I think that would be your best bet - It just seems like one is bigger than the other (rightie) - but not by much.

[TrickyNikki]

Hugs to you. Sounds like you are going through a lot. I would not give up completely yet, there is still hope! If you think you are at the bottom now, what worse could happen? My thoughts are with you, and I am getting my surgery in the same week as you, so I will be checking to see how things are going!!

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by titangirl

I dont think they look bad but I do see where the one (to my right) is bigger - Could you just reduce the cc's in it and get scutres put in it to hold and then be all good - I think that would be your best bet - It just seems like one is bigger than the other (rightie) - but not by much.

Thanks did that in June... did not hold and I also asked to remove some CC's and he said that the sag is making an optical illusion thats why it looks bigger...So my plastic surgeon put perminant sutures in and it held for a month or so and than stretched out agian...

[neednewones]

I am so sorry you are going through this. We always are our own worst critics and so hard on ourselves. I have seen your pics and you are beautiful and you look amazing but if you are not happy you need to do what is right for you. I would go smaller with the lift but that is just what I would do.

GL hun HUGZ

[CLM]

I agree with everyone else. I don't think you look bad. I think you have a fabulous body! Your sexy photo shoot pics were hot!! However, when I read your post, I can feel the desperation in your voice. Usually when someone has to make a difficult decision, something will pull them in one direction. Can you emotionally tolerate another surgery? Does your plastic surgeon think less cc's and a lift will hold?

I wish you only the best. I hope you find some peace soon. ((HUGS))

[JayJgirls]

Originally Posted by CLM

I agree with everyone else. I don't think you look bad. I think you have a fabulous body! Your sexy photo shoot pics were hot!! However, when I read your post, I can feel the desperation in your voice. Usually when someone has to make a difficult decision, something will pull them in one direction. Can you emotionally tolerate another surgery? Does your plastic surgeon think less cc's and a lift will hold?

I wish you only the best. I hope you find some peace soon. ((HUGS))

Thank you... I don't know emotionally how I will hold I think that is my hesitation, with the lift I will be forever adding scars and what if the lift fails...

Less CC's and a lift ??? I don't know why it would it didn't the second time...

[77australia]

FS sent.
I am new to all this -- but I felt terrible reading your post. Hang in there and realize that you will soon turn a corner and things will start to make sense. smiles to you.

[NC74]

I agree completely with misspriss!!! You should give it another go cos i dont think you'll be very happy if you dont! I also dont think they are as bad as you think!! (((hugs)))

[lucygirl]

Hey there, I just wanted to shout out some big hugs to you. Also, if you really are down and depressed to the point where you even comtemplated suicide, I really think you need to talk to someone. And I don't mean a plastic surgeon. You should talk to a psychologist, counselor, etc. It is not healthy to have these feelings and maybe there is someone else who can help you out. I really feel for you and the feelings you are having and I hope you know that you aren't alone. Good luck with everything, please keep us posted. Also, I agree with Miss Priss, we really are our own worst critics, I think you are beautiful and this second surgery may be exactly what you need to make you feel better!!

[titangirl]

Well dang it! I have the sutures and mine have held up so hopefully if you get a lift, lower the cc's some that everything will hold up - I am really sorry you are going through this....just try to keep in mind all of the other good things you have in your life right now....this will pass!

[picksydusst82]

sorry to hear you are going through this... however, i do agree that they really don't look that bad, in fact, i think they look pretty good! granted, i know that when they are ON you, you are extremely critical of them (i am so critical of my own to the tiniest differences).

i just want you to feel better hun, i have no words, except, feel better! you are gorgeous, and honestly, it really could be a lot worse! i had a friend this past week that i went to HS with pass away from an accident, and i am reminding myself (i have been so stressed lately due to financial reasons) that it could be a lot worse... i would take all my stresses i have now, than not be here on earth, breathing and living.

keep us posted on your decision!!

xoxoxoxo

[Pinki]

you have been going through alot with your implants and you most certainly don't deserve that. i can't imagine what it's like. i was feeling seriously down for a few weeks after my BA and it was horrible to go through so going through it for as long as you did can not be easy.
i do not think under any circumstance that you should live the rest of your life unhappy or depressed because of this. i say go for it again. you have already been to hell and back with this so one last effort to get what you deserve (and paid for!!!!) is worth it.

i can give you my honest opinion and tell you that i do not see exactly what you're seeing. i think they look fine and you are a beautiful woman who has nothing to feel bad about but i also know that we see ourselves differently and your happiness is what truly matters. just hold your head up high and hope for the best. i truly do believe that when we expect the worst, the worst happens. i will definitely keep you in my prayers and i hope you finally get the results you want, should you decide to go on with the lift/smaller implants. try to stay positive!!

big hugs to you and good luck

[WildBerry]

I feel so bad for you. Having a taste of post op not going the way i thought and knowing i will not be happy now until i address them, I have to say i would not go back to having them removed because i know they would look so saggy. I had my lfit and i am saying the scars are not that noticable. no i will never be a naked model but being naked for my hubby doesnt upset me and i too have very loose skin and tissue so i know without the lift my implants would be at my knees in no time so i had to make the decision all or nothing. I would not have been able to get away with just implants. You know your own emotional breaking point and breasts are just not worth going over it.