I think I'm getting scared

[Peachesp313]

I really thought this wouldn't happen to me. I kept thinking of it the way I thought about giving birth the first time...I have to go through the unknown and the pain in order to reap the rewards. I figured I could only accept that then, and I should just do the same in regards to boobs.

So the pain is not what I'm afraid of...I think I'll be cool with that.

It's going under general anesthesia. I never have before. And I know it's really pretty safe these days...that's not what I'm thinking about.

I keep thinking how freaky it is that I will be so out of it that I won't feel someone cutting into me, or know what is going on.
I totally know it is about losing control, because MAN! If there is ever a time when one is in control of nothing it is surely while under general anesthesia.

I keep hoping that surgeons in general know how much faith and trust a patient must have in them for us to hand ourselves over and say, "Here, cut me open, dig around, insert foreign object, sew me up, and send me on my way all while not taking advantage of the state I am. And I'll pay you! k?"

I'm not saying I think my PS or his staff would do anything to me while I am out, I trust him so much. It's just that I really won't have any control over anything...at all. And what will I be doing? Dreaming? Good dreams? Bad dreams?

Sorry...it's just so damn freaky to me when I really sit and think about it!

However, this isn't going to make me change my mind. I want this so so bad...have for a long time. If I don't do it now, I'll regret it, I know it.

And ya know, I came across a John Wayne quote the other day (not really a fan of his, but I like the quote): Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway.

Okay, I'm done. Sorry for rambling on and on here, but this was all stuck in my head and I feel lots better now that it isn't.

Many thanks to you all for !!

[abbykiersten2]

I just want to say Good Luck, I haven't been through it yet, although I have been put to sleep many times in the past. I don't however remember dreaming anything and I do remember it was over before I knew it. I felt like I was asleep maybe one minute. I think you will do great and I will be praying for you.

[june5]

I think it is normal to be scared. Also there are other staff there to make sure nothing out of the ordinary happens.

Like most of the women have said, they get nervous about the iv, then they are out and next thing they know they are waking up with boobs.

When you wake up it is like you had a really good sleep. You will be fine.

[gemma]

I so feel the same about going under a General.So much so that Im Having mine Under Twilight sedation.
Just freakes me out as i havent been under general before either.Im sure generals are far more safer today than years ago.
Im sure you will be fine but i understand your feeling totally.
Good Luck Gemma xx

[Bethmomof6]

(((BIG HUGS))) It will all be fine!! I have been under 2 times and don't remember anything. It seemed like a matter of seconds from when I went to sleep and woke up.

I wish you the best of luck with your upcoming breast augmentation!!

[milla]

Peaches, you'll be fine. Gemma, you will too

what you are both feeling is completely normal. a bit early - personally it took me a while to freak out - but i did too. i think it was on the eve of my breast augmentation and i kept thinking NOOOO i like my boobies, i love them, dont touch them, they're mine ..... and other such nonsense

today i'm way over it. i still love my boobies. i love them a little bit more maybe coz there's a bit more to love i'm not saying you wont have hard times and sad times. it will be a rollercoaster but at the end i just want to wish you both, and all the other girls due for their breast augmentation soon, happy healing and i hope you'll love your additions as much as i love mine.

[Cyn(JULIET76)]

I understand how you feel, as I had many of the same fears, and worse. I was afraid of making a fool of myself, like I see some do on t.v. surgery....you know, professing my love to total strangers, confessing secrets I'd rather no one knows... It turns out, I just cry coming out of General, which is embarrassing enough, but my anesthesiologist says it happens more often than one would think. I don't remember dreaming while I was under, which is fine by me, 'cause who knows what kind of crazy stuff my little head would've come up with!

I know this will be hard, but try to divert your thoughts to something, anything else. Get up and clean, of give yourself a mani/pedi. It's gonna be a long time before you can reach your feet again! Good luck to you!!!!

Cynthia

[SnowBunny]

Oh honey, I can understand your concerns. The unknown is a frightening thing and of course having no control is also scary. But from everything I have read is that you will only feel like you were out for a minute and have no recall of anything.

Try to think happy thoughts... like shopping for new bras, swim suits and then think about how good you are going to look in them

[rhijennings]

I agree I just emailed my ps yesterday to ask for twilight instead of general but mainly I dont want that thing put down my throat and definitly would like to try to stay away from nausea as much as possible. I have way to much time on my hands to think. LOL

[mama2twingirls]

Awww, sweetie...

I think it is normal to go through such things in your mind.
Don't really know what else to tell you that these other ladies haven't already said, but I can tell you,.... you will be fine, and lovin' the new additions.

BTW, I didn't dream

[Tamster]

i like the john wayne quote...my son gave me a card that read ..."The future belongs to those who have the courage to live their dreams"....(great kid hey....he's 10)

as far as the anesthetic is concerned .....don't worry at all !!! i've been under 3x in 9 months ....i was fine each and every time ....just know ahead of time what to expect AFTER the procedure ....being prepared is the best remedy of all....and that part you can control....you're going to be just fine

[Peachesp313]

Originally Posted by Cyn(JULIET76)

I understand how you feel, as I had many of the same fears, and worse. I was afraid of making a fool of myself, like I see some do on t.v. surgery....you know, professing my love to total strangers, confessing secrets I'd rather no one knows... It turns out, I just cry coming out of General, which is embarrassing enough, but my anesthesiologist says it happens more often than one would think. I don't remember dreaming while I was under, which is fine by me, 'cause who knows what kind of crazy stuff my little head would've come up with!

I know this will be hard, but try to divert your thoughts to something, anything else. Get up and clean, of give yourself a mani/pedi. It's gonna be a long time before you can reach your feet again! Good luck to you!!!!

Cynthia

OMG! I'm so afraid of that, too! I don't want to say something I'll regret when they give me my "cocktail"...and I have this funny feeling I'm going to be a crier when I come out of it...I cry for everything else, why not when I wake up from anesthesia!
I plan on warning everyone prior that I may become a complete fool.

Thanks so much!

[Peachesp313]

Originally Posted by Tamster

i like the john wayne quote...my son gave me a card that read ..."The future belongs to those who have the courage to live their dreams"....(great kid hey....he's 10)

as far as the anesthetic is concerned .....don't worry at all !!! i've been under 3x in 9 months ....i was fine each and every time ....just know ahead of time what to expect AFTER the procedure ....being prepared is the best remedy of all....and that part you can control....you're going to be just fine

Sounds like you have a very wise boy on your hands, Tammy! I think I shall keep that quote tucked into my mind along with John Wayne's...just keep repeating them as the big days gets closer.

Thanks for your response, I appreciate it!


I appreciate everyone of you for responding!! Many thanks go out to you all...for everything. I hope I will be as much help to someone in the (near) future as you all have been to me. Many blessing!

[Aqua]

I wrote the deets of my anesthsia experience in a thread called last minute jitters- or you can find it in my profile if you search for all posts by neon. Check it out!

BTW I was a total crier! Because I felt just pukey and in pain and my chest was heavy- but don't worry- i was also feeling out-of-it youknow so i didn't worry about how i seemed to people! I thnk in retrospect, just ask for pills then go to sleep. Try to keep falling back to sleep- this is what I did. I would wake up and be like oh no way i feel like crap still, then fall asleep. When i did wake up hours later I felt great (as great as possible in those circumstances!)
Ignore all the stuff about who is waiting for you to be ready, who is waiting to drive you home, who you need to call, etc. You can sleep through the freaky mess phase and you be best off not fighting it! I can't believe actually how easy it all is. It's such an awesome shock to see my boobies! I strolled down Madison Ave today and i was like when when my swelling is down im going in there and there and in there . . .
Just a week or so of discomfort and a lifetime of awesome shopping! Only real problem is, you'll look so good in everything- ya might need a new closet!
Good luck!

[Phenomom]

Denise,
I'm sure you know your feelings are normal. I had the same thoughts about being out of it. I have to say, I don't recall dreaming. Most of us simply remember being given the juice an then waking up with boobs. You'll be fine.

Good Luck,

[Peachesp313]

Originally Posted by Phenomom

Denise,
I'm sure you know your feelings are normal. I had the same thoughts about being out of it. I have to say, I don't recall dreaming. Most of us simply remember being given the juice an then waking up with boobs. You'll be fine.

Good Luck,

Yeah, I know it's normal, and I know I really have very little to be concerned about. I know it will be quick and problem free. That's why I didn't think I'd get like this.
It's not fear really, it's just not having anything I can look to as a reference for myself. The closest I can get to preparing for it is to read through posts here and talk to my cousin.

But you and all the other wonderful gals are helping tons by relaying your experiences, and just letting me talk about it.

Thanks to you and the others...I can feel my B/P dropping...lol!

[vegashotgirl]

Ok! so I have to tell you that I am actually scared of the pain!
I have thought about sleep and how it will be uncomfortable, and pain pills and the fact that my kids will be running around w/out mom being able to help out. I know dad can do it all alone but there are ways that I put them to bed and read first or what not. I have been under general anastesia when I had my second son. I had a cerclage put in at 14 weeks and it was scary but happend so fast that I did not have time to think about the fear. I awoke four hours later to an attentive nurse and the first thing I did was look at the clock! It felt as I had slept for days! It was great!!

I think I am scared to wake up in this HUGE pain. I am having the pain pumps put in. I am wondering who else has had this done. It is supposed to administer pain med directly in the incision. Or under my pecs. I chose to have it under my arm even though he stated he liked doing the arreola insicion. I figured it made no sense bacause it seems it would be easier to isolate the pectoral muscle through the axillary not the nipples. Anyway, I am waiting till Friday to schedule my preop and will let all know what is going on after that. I am hoping to schedule me surgury for March 30th or the Tues. that week.

[Jess]

If I dreamt I dont remember it. It was like a matter of seconds. I remembering being put out and I remember the nurse waking me up (numerous times) I didn't want to wake up, lol. Finally they sent my hubby in to keep me awake. It's such an amazing feeling when you wake up, look down and see "bumps" under your gown. I couldn't believe how happy I felt, I was so thrilled. Even when I looked at them later that day and they looked ugly right after surgery I was still so happy to see boobs. Yes, they were swollen, tight and deformed but I loved them the minute I saw them and I knew they would look beautiful with time and they do.

We're all scared, for whatever reasons. You are NOT alone. Your PS would not be in business if he (or his staff) did ANYTHING that was not the norm.

[Jess]

Originally Posted by vegashotgirl

Ok! so I have to tell you that I am actually scared of the pain!
I have thought about sleep and how it will be uncomfortable, and pain pills and the fact that my kids will be running around w/out mom being able to help out. I know dad can do it all alone but there are ways that I put them to bed and read first or what not. I have been under general anastesia when I had my second son. I had a cerclage put in at 14 weeks and it was scary but happend so fast that I did not have time to think about the fear. I awoke four hours later to an attentive nurse and the first thing I did was look at the clock! It felt as I had slept for days! It was great!!

I think I am scared to wake up in this HUGE pain. I am having the pain pumps put in. I am wondering who else has had this done. It is supposed to administer pain med directly in the incision. Or under my pecs. I chose to have it under my arm even though he stated he liked doing the arreola insicion. I figured it made no sense bacause it seems it would be easier to isolate the pectoral muscle through the axillary not the nipples. Anyway, I am waiting till Friday to schedule my preop and will let all know what is going on after that. I am hoping to schedule me surgury for March 30th or the Tues. that week.

I had the pump and for ME it was wonderful. I had very very little "pain". Mainly pressure on my chest but not "pain". I didn't even take my pain pills, didn't need them. It's all worth it in the end, the pain wont last forever and you'll have beautiful breasts when it's all said and done.

[Kerri]

My breast augmentation is 3/1 the day before you and I'm just as scared. Not afraid of pain, had 2 children, have had broken ribs - not afraid of pain at all. I'm afraid of going under. I have gotten so much reassurance, but it is a scary thing. I'm not the "risk taker" type of person, so I'm amazed at myself for going through with this. I know we will be fine. I will post as soon as I can and I hope you do the same. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck to us!