Ok, so I have a confession to make

[april716]

I like sooooo many others suffered a major case of boob greed (especially after finding this site ). I initially went into my doctor saying "I'd like a small C" and she recommended 350cc's. After trying on the sizers in her office (which I felt were HUGE) and taking pics and looking at those pics at home over and over and over, I decided a small C was just too small. So I began researching and came to the conclusion that I wanted a small D (32D preferably). I told my PS, and we tried 400's and then 450's both of which I thought looked GREAT! My PS said she would bring both the 400's and the 450's into surgery and whichever size achieved the look I was going for, was the size she would use. A week later I was ready for my surgery....I got cold feet at the last minute and told her "Don't use the 450's AT ALL" and she said "What are you thinking 375?" and I said "Whoa, whoa, not that small, 400 please" she laughed, I laughed, and surgery proceeded (my breast augmentation story coming soon, I PROMISE )

The next day (considering surgery day I was COMPLETELY out of it) I looked at my boobs and said "WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?!?!?!?!?!?" They were SOOOO HUGE and ROUND and FAKE LOOKING!!!!!!! I thought "My god, what was I thinking? Was all this REALLY worth THESE?" I told my PS "Natural, natural, natural. And while I realize some people (actually a lot more than I would have guessed) WANT the fake look (and that is PERFECTLY fine for WHOEVER wants it), I do not. I specifically said I don't want two huge humps sitting in my neck and I don't want them round like cantelopes. I want them flat on the top and I want them to fall into a shape like a natural boob does (I call it a teardrop shape)." My PS guaranteed that she would do that. And she even reinterated it right before my surgery.

SO WHY DO I HAVE THESE HUGE SHINY CANTALOPES SITTING IN MY NECK????????!!!!!!

I just knew that if I was to get measured they would be 56ZZZ's. UGH!!!!!

I was embarresed and felt like I didn't have anyone to talk to because I felt like if I mentioned it to any of my friends or family I would get the "I told you don't do it" speech. SOOOO, I sat depressed avoiding phone calls and not answering back to some of my JBI buddies regarding whether I liked them or if I was happy or saying how my recovery was going.

My DH saw me getting out of the shower (just yesterday, a week later, because I was too shy to even show him) and he said "Whoa! Those are some big titties." THANKS!!!! He said "I like them though! Your PS did a GOOD job. They are perfect. And if your man says he likes them, then that's all that matters" Uhhhhhhh......NO!! I got the boobs for me and me alone. If I'm not happy then something has to be done.

Finally, I found enough courage to tell one of my good friends and she said "I'm so sorry this didn't work out for you. I know how important it was to you. I feel like I've been let down too because I was just as excited" and I told one other friend and she said the same. So a slight sense of relief.....at least there were 2 people I could talk to that wouldn't say "I told ya so".

So this morning I called my PS practically in tears talking about the issues I was having. She says "Well, it will take about 6months to a year for the breasts to really form into the shape that they will form into......."

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!! So I have to sit here for an ENTIRE year with these massive 56ZZZ's soccer balls on my chest?!?!?!?!?!? That sent me into deeper depression.

So finally I got an idea. I will get sized. Yes, I will get sized on my lunch break. My PS keeps saying "the swelling has to go down, the swelling has to go down" but I don't know how 56ZZZ's would eventually give me my natural 32D's I initally asked for. There isn't that much swelling in the world. My PS told me Victoria Secret ran small but I couldn't think of anyplace else to go since my mind was fogged with big boobie nightmares! So I mentioned that I wanted to get sized to one of my friends and she recommended a department store.

YES!!!! EUREKA!!!!! There is a Saks not even 5 minutes from where I work. I didn't wait for lunch, I just got up from my desk and went (it literally only takes 2 minutes to get there.....I mean how long can a sizing take, my job will just have to wait work, schmurk) and I met a lovely lady named Alyson.

Alyson took my measurements and told me that even with the swelling I am a whopping.................34C LOL!

I think my cheeks flushed red immediately and I explained my situation to Alyson. She told me she gets ladies with boob jobs in all the time, and you can clearly see the swelling of the boobs sitting in my neck (I had a VERY rough time finding a "1st day back to work" ensemble because of that). I'm not a 56ZZZ AT ALL!!! RELIEF AT LAST!!!!!!

Alyson helped to give me 85% relief. The other 15% is shape. I'll give the PS the benefit of the doubt (she IS the expert right?) and allow time to force gravity to get those humps out of my neck, give me that teardrop shape I long for, and stop being so depressed.

Now as far as posting post op pics....I don't think I've made it that far yet. Maybe once I actually see the boobs get better......then I'll feel more comfortable showing the before and afters....but right now I'm taking baby steps. Who knew getting boobs would be this much of an emotional rollercoaster ride?

[jamiec3]

I had surgery nov 12 and I still haven't gone back to work. I have to take pain meds every 4 hours or else I'm almost in tears. Granted I see u had to kids. I went under the muscle which I hear is more painful and takes longer to heal I was a 36A before and got 450 mod plus. When I tried the sizers on I loved the size. Yet after surgery when I got to see them for the first time I almost cried they were huge and I was devestated. I regreted my choice and couldn't believe what I did to myself. Yet looking at them now a lot of swelling has gone down and I am starting to like them again. U must be wonder woman to be able to go back to work I tried taking a few days off but I am still in a lot of pain and without pills I am litteraly in tears balling cause I hurt so bad. My ps says everyone heals differently and that I probably have a low pain tolerance. Oh and besides the pain today is the first day since surgery that I haven't thrown up. So pain and nausea are my enemies right now. I wish I was strong like u and able to go to work. I have to take naps in the middle of the day cause I get so exhausted. I'm a huge active person so for me I'm super depressed with this whole deal and at times I wish I never did this to my self.

[2bigdogs]

Hang in there! I am sure it will get better. Take time to look through albums to see the other girl's progressions and get some relief that they will change. It's amazing what a week will do, especially once you are out of the first couple post-op.

If it makes you feel any better, I will be right there with you if the same thing happens to me. I'm tempted not to even look at them for at least a week so I won't be as freaked out right after. It's hard to get your hopes up and expect one thing and think you may have gotten another. I'm also going for the round, teardrop, "natural" look. Here's wishing us both luck!

You'll be great though as long as you keep the sense of humor you had in your story! Can't wait to read all the details.

[Fifi McKenzie]

lol, loved your story!

I'm almost five months out now, and they look better now than they ever have. They've changed even over the last month, and I expect them to keep dropping/softening up.

Hang in there!

[jenkay]

Oh how familiar your story is to my own I am happy to read your post, I have been thinking of you and your recovery. I remember after I woke up from surgery thinking, OH MY GOSH, these things are HUGE, what did my PS do?? Did I show her the right picture of my "dream" boobies, because these look nothing like it...

Just hang in there, you have a lot of swelling and it will go down, they will start to drop and begin to look more what you have been hoping for And, I am still on that emotional roller coaster waiting to get off!!

[april716]

@ Jaimec3- yes, I understand. I was in ALOT of pain afterwards. Luckily I didn't suffer with the nausea though (although I filled my perscription for nausea just in case. I do normally suffer from that). I can't lie, there is something in me that wishes I had of gone with the 350's instead of the 400's but as I said before a 34C is preferable, so I can't complain....it's alot better then the 52G's I thought I had. My bra is what hurt me the most. I got my implants through the crease so the bra rubs against my stitches and it really bothers me (I actually didn't wear a bra at all today at work) but I went to target and bought a bra that looks identical to the bra the PS told me to wear and that is a little more comfortable because it is a 34 instead of a 32. And I stopped taking my meds yesterday. I gradually started wheening myself off, and began replacing with Tylenol and then eventually needed nothing. When you start feeling a little better, get sized. It can REALLY help alleviate some of the anxiety of thinking you are bigger than you really are.

@ 2bigdogs (what a funny name )- That's what's so funny because I literally have been on this site NIGHT and DAY for the last MONTH!!!! So I should know better, but nothing gives you that rude awakening until you have it for yourself!!!!! I mean I have seen SOOOO many boobs and not all look the same after surgery. Mine are literally balls!!!! Perfectly shaped round 360 degree BALLS on my chest!!!! lol!!!! Hopefully that will change.

@ Fifi McKenzie- I am friend requesting you, I would love to see your progression pics.

[gonnabperky]

Hay April716. I am pretty sure we are breast augmentation sisters. I think you also had urs on nov 13(or very close to it). I am also going thru what you are goin thru. I have spent every free minute shopping for something that will mash these things down...lol. I didnt tell very many people, today was my first day back to work, and no one noticed. I am not sure how long I will be able to hide it, though.I bought a spanx type tank top at target. I think I will go back tomorrow and get one in every color. It also just feels good to have em hemmed up good, if you know what I mean. I try to just keep in mind that my PS knew what he was doin, and they will look good in the end..... Keep ur spirits up. You re sufferin the "boobie blues"

[vainღ♥♡jane]

lol! you are a good story teller. i thought everybody had the 'cantelopes' post breast augmentation until they drop and fluff.

[tabby15208]

Cantaloupes or Sponge-Bob Squareboobs...hm. Fun! No wonder I keep postponing this surgery

Thanks for the story, it is insightful for those of us yet to embark on this little journey. Hope things get better for you. I've seen 999 beofre and afters, and they do get better!!!!

[kynchanted]

Hi! I also had my breast augmentation on 13 Nov and I went back and forth between a 520 and a 560 cc implant...I went with the 520 and am glad I did. I am measuring at a 34C but I have tried to put one on and there is no way the bra fits...the band alone sits about an .5-1 inch away from my chest under my boobs, plus they don't look like a C. I get sad when I see that I measure at a C-cup because this is my second breast augmentation: my first breast augmentation was a 340cc implant that took me from a 34A to a 34B...WTF? 340cc's and that's all I get? So I get discouraged that a 520 would only get me one cup size more but I went bra shopping today and got a 34D and it was tight even. I try not to get too concerned with the actual size and try to remember how they LOOK to me. I had some people even tell me to get a 600 cc! I think even the 560 would have been a little crazy on me. The point of all that rambling, I know how you feel. I was a little scared of how big and round mine were too at first but they are slowly de-swelling and looking exactly how I wanted them to look. Hubby even approves and he was against them!
Good luck and I am sure you will love them once they settle down!

[nicki_7890]

loll..very funny/interesting story. very insightful, good to hear others experiences though, i thought i was the only one freaking out. haha..goodluck keep us all updated!

[VictoriaC]

Thanks for sharing your story, I felt lik I could have written it myself..A lot of girls can relate to this..but putting it into words was just so hard for me so I never bothered. All I have to say is that untill about 2 weeks my boobs were triple the size I asked for....at 1 week they went down SO MUCH LIKE 2 SIZES! and than even at 4 months my shape is coming along nicely.

Thank you for sharing once again, I hope this eases the minds of other girls who are worried about this too! Goodluck and happy healing!

[Gogibean]

I appreciated reading your post also. I orginally was thinking a small to medium C 325-350cc's, then towards the end of my consults, I decided I wanted a full c. I am tall but a very thin person, so I didn't want to look too big on top.

I had my breast augmentation 8 days ago and ended up with 375 cc. The first few days I was in so much pain I didn't really get to look at them. Then I started putting on some clothes and felt HUGE! Seriously, I was awake almost all night thinking what the heck have I done?!!! My best friend has had 3 breast augmentation's (2 saline ruptures) and she just keeps talking me down saying it takes weeks for them to settle and the swelling to be completely gone. When I saw the nurse at 5 days out I told her they felt huge and she reminded me that I was going to have to get used to actually seeing something on my chest! LOL

I bought a sports bra to hold them in a bit more and that is helping. I finally went to measure myself CONVINCED I was at least a D, and nope, I was a C! So, I think it is hard for us to adjust at first. You are not alone in this. I think most of us go through this.

Hang in there and we can hope that by summer when we put our sexy bikinis on, our boobs will have dropped, softened and hot!

[krelean]

Thank you for sharing, your story was really cute and I am sure so many women can relate! You are too cute!

[greeneyes]

I completely get thinking that they are huge at first. I felt the same way and now at almost 3 weeks I'm finally starting to feel really happy about them. Two of the biggest reasons they feel huge is the swelling and just not being used to them. We had our "before" boobs for a long time and all of a sudden these way larger boobs are on our chest! That takes some getting used to; naked and in clothes.

[BV0405]

Hunny, don't stress out! I was in the same boat thinking I went too small though! It was such a crazy emotional rollercoaster! I cried and then I liked them, then hated them..now love them again! It all takes time..have some faith in you PS and I'm sure you will end up with results that you love! You are still very early out and I know we all wish that we are going to look perfect right after surgery but we aren't that lucky! haha Keep your head up and know that it all takes patience and time.