Hitting bottom, need some prayers.

[Aria_cavatina]

I am so thankful I found this forum, and maybe I'm going nuts, but I asked my PS if i could remove them today. They said they would get back to me. I'm sure they know that I'm not even a week out and that they don't look the way they will look. I guess I've worked myself into a frenzy and am having a hard time calming down about it.

my PS did NOTHING wrong, they look great and he did a FANTASTIC job i'd recommend him to anyone. i am not trying to say anything bad about him or his practice, because he has been wonderful and is really amazing.

He is very professional and really they look great, I just keep feeling like I have a time bomb on my chest, and feel so foolish for making myself go through all of this pain. They look fine, but to me they are so huge, so much larger than I wanted and I know the swelling will go down, but I just feel like a freak.

Does anyone know if there is a possibility of having them removed so soon after surgery?

I wish I could just be strong and be ok with how this looks, but I don't know if i can do this for 6 months, I really feel like just going back in time and not doing this to myself. I'm really sorry I'm not trying to say that this is a bad thing for someone else to do, I'm just in tears and hoping that someone else could give me some advice on how to get through this? or if its possible to take back what I did? Has anyone else gotten like this low low after having it done? I'm really in a bad place right now. Please erase this message if you feel like its in anyway inappropriate for this forum. And anyone who is religious, if you could include me in your prayers I would be so thankful.

[Kellie99is]

I think you would regret taking them out. This is the hardest part of it now so wait it out a few weeks and I bet you'll be glad you got them. It definitely takes some getting used to.

Your pictures are gorgeous. You look so beautiful and, no, you do NOT look like a freak. Your reaction is fairly normal. I'm having trouble getting used to mine, too.

I think more surgery right now would be pretty risky. I'm on day 6 also, so if there is anything I can help you with, let me know or PM me. I am definitely praying for you.

Also, don't let anyone else's opinions get in the way of what you REALLY want.

[young and restless]

aww honey! relax! I went through the same thing! I cried for about the first week and half not stop wondering what I did to myself or why I wanted to ever do this. I kept thinking my boobs were small before but I never had any problems with them. Its just getting used to them. I hated it too. sleeping was horrible. bending over I got this weird sensation in my chest almost painful sensation at that. I suppose its just the weight of the implant. but not it has been over a month and i feel like i've had them my whole life. so just give it time. you are in the hardest stage. you will learn to love them! your post op pics look great! and they are only going to look better! hang in there!

[FoxyBooBear]

I think you look really wonderful. You went with a complimentary size to your frame. I really think you need to wait a bit before making a decision like removing you implants.

You are going through an emotional time. After surgery our feelings get mixed up. It is so easy to wonder if you made a wrong decision after surgery. Plus everything feels new and weird.

Just remember you did all your homework before surgery and this is the adjusting period. We all go through it just in different ways.

[Blue Eyed Floozy]

I think a lot of people go through that, especially when you just had your procedure done. Your emotions are up and down and all over the place.

The pictures you have in your signature do not look bad at all. Your breasts look very natural, and they are not over the top. From what I can see of your frame, they compliment you very nicely - not freakish in the least.

Are you having difficulty with your surgery other than emotionally? Are you in pain? Are you still taking pain medication at all? (Being on pain medication, and the subsequent withdrawal from it can wreak havoc on one emotionally.)

I'm thinking of you and praying for your peace in whatever decision you end up making.

[Aria_cavatina]

Originally Posted by Blue Eyed Floozy

I think a lot of people go through that, especially when you just had your procedure done. Your emotions are up and down and all over the place.

The pictures you have in your signature do not look bad at all. Your breasts look very natural, and they are not over the top. From what I can see of your frame, they compliment you very nicely - not freakish in the least.

Are you having difficulty with your surgery other than emotionally? Are you in pain? Are you still taking pain medication at all? (Being on pain medication, and the subsequent withdrawal from it can wreak havoc on one emotionally.)

I'm thinking of you and praying for your peace in whatever decision you end up making.

I stopped the pain meds except advil and tylenol on sunday. I did have an allergic reaction to the first and second anti biotic, which made it hard to breathe, eat or close my mouth, a lot of trouble they both caused me but i'm off anti biotics now so hopefully I'll feel better. I am in a LOT of pain. Thank you so much for your support, I feel so foolish, i KNEW i would feel this way but it didn't prepare me, I still feel so sad.

[Hopeful]

I am so sorry you are feeling so cruddy. I too am in a bad place emotionally but it is for a different reason. Like the other girls have stated above me your pictures look great. There is nothing about your pictures that scream "boob job". They look very natural and not in anyway freakish.

I am holding on to other's advice that I need to give them time but it is hard. Whatever your decision is I hope you find some peace of mind

[Jnyfer]

Hey hunny you look amazing and so natural already... each day will get better and better. I am 3 weeks out now and im feeling so much better than the first 2 weeks so just hang in there it will all be ok, im thinking of you

Jen.

[juju corona]

I feel you!! I had a really horrible last night and I feel terrible even complaining about it because my post-op recovery was pretty easy -not like yours. I went to my post-op check up yesterday and she gave me the strap. I only had it on for 10 minutes and that caused my implants to act up ALL day and the rest of the night. It was so bad that it made me turn back to the drugs!!!! I have been off the pain meds since Monday. The vicodin didn't help that much - although I was able to sleep and I was afraid to move. I was miserable all night and barely slept and even went to that place where I wanted to cry and say to myself - why did I do this to myself???!!! So I feel your pain and we need to focus on it will ease up eventually... even though it would be nice to just have your body cut you some slack and let you feel a little better. Just know that you are understood and your feelings are natural. I will pray for you and me (and all the others who are feeling horrible right now!). ((((((((hugs))))))))

[Elledriver]

Oh sweetheart!

I could have written this exact same post about 2 weeks ago (as a matter of fact, I DID! From the bathroom of my work!).

It SuCKS and you feel miserable and you are just waiting for one to bottom out or explode or migrate to your back.

I know honey.

You feel selfish because they do look good and physically there is nothing wrong.

I know.

I showered with my tank top on for 3 days. I went into my ps's office and cried. I cried to my boyfriend, grandmother, anyone that would listen.

Then I stopped.

Took a breath.

Commited to leaving them alone for 6 months.

1 month later-yes, I still worry, yes, I still occasioanlly obsess, yes I still don't know that they are 'me'. But I have them and I am going to try to settle with them for 6 months.

Most days I don't notice them unless I am walking b a mirror (then I notice how big they are . Other than that they are just sort of there. And I know in 6 months they will still be just there.

Take a breath.

Stand back.

Stand tall and straight.

Take it day by day. Or minute by minute if you need to.

And hug yourself for me. You will be ok.

[lilybean]

Hang in there, and listen to what everyone says. It was rough for me as well. My one month anniversary is tomorrow and I could not be any happier, but when I was in your shoes, I felt the same exact way!!!!! God bless!

[Alaria]

HUGS HUGS!!! This is part of recovery for many people. The should I have done this. You don't want to remove them right now, I say that in my best Star Wars Jedi tone. You don't want to risk any complications so you want your body to have sometime to heal. Your health firstly. I have said a prayer for you and will remember you again tonight. You look incredible. It is a shocking change to our bodies and we can't help but be overwhelmed. Don't think about chachas. Stop reading this forum even, rent a movie, read a book and try and get a good nights sleep. I felt a little depressive a few days and I realized it was because of lack of sleep. When I finally got a good nights sleep I felt somewhat better. GL girl and hang in there.

[sandybaby]

SO sorry you are feeling this way. When I look at your after pic I think, WOW she looks gorgeous - perfect size, not too big, not too small. My post-op instructions say that the first three weeks are an emotional roller coaster. You're riding it now. You will get off the roller coaster and I bet you will fall in love with your new look. Please don't do anything hasty. My prayers are with you!

[mayaonearth]

Sending prayers that you start feeling better physically and emotionally and you make the "right" decision for you. Only your ps can say when if you are sure you want them out. I dont think any of us can tell you that answer, but for most of the people that wanted to go bigger they usually say 6 months. There are too many different factors to know exactly what your ps might say.
I had my first ba about 8 years ago. I completely and totally freaked out. I was crying and told my dh I wanted them "out" NOW.. I felt like weird, foreign things were inside me and prayed and said I would give ANYTHING to reverse time.. I did NOT call my ps during this "breakdown". I would say it lasted at least several days if not more. I then started feeling better physically, which def made me feel better emotionally, the swelling went down, they looked SO much better and I started to feel they were a part of me. I did NOT after that regret my decision, obviously as I had them replaced in Feb. I wish you the very best with all of this, and please let us know what your ps says, and how you are feeling..