Miserable

[starrxx]

So im 5 days PO and im MISERABLE! Im usually extremely tolerant to pain and situations like this but I don't know what it is, i've been a big ball of tears for days. I can't get comfortable, I can't sleep, I can't stop CRYING! Im so swollen everywhere and I even had to switch bras because my PO bra was a 32C [they put you in a tighter one to prevent hematomas] and I was swelling so much that you would see lumps under my armpits. I've iced and iced and im always swollen there, that's what I get for trying to go big huh?? lol My boyfriend just left for home as hes been at my house for over 5 days and its almost the start of a new week and he has things to do, and I lost it! I couldn't stop crying and I had an anxiety attack, I have NO idea why! I guess im so used to him being there throughout all of this that I don't want him gone, but I feel ridiculous crying so darn much. I can't wait for this all to be over with, of course I had to get the crappy recovery lol

I hope all you other ladies are doing well and had good holidays!

[msmisty]

aww sweetie, it gets better. it sounds like you have the post surgery blues. I had it too. Im usually a really bubbly person, always optimistic and happy and i swear for 3 weeks after my surgery i would just start crying for no reason, be totally depressed all the time. I'm not really sure why, maybe all the meds...

it gets better, just hang in there!

[lesliemo]

hey girl... dont feel bad, you are not the only one wha had a crappy recovery. i am still a bit sore when i move certain ways and im like on day 10 or more i cant remember, look at my signature and it will tell u! i wake up every morning in pain because i manage to sleep on them every night and when i wake up they are hard and sore and seem to be squeezing my heart or something, but after i massage, i feel better. hot baths are great too. i never used ice except the day before thanksgiving i went grocery shopping to buy stuff for the pie i was baking and i was hurting so bad from the 3 hour car trip and i walked around wal mart with a thing of cool whip out of the freeezer on my boobs and did not care who was looking at me crazy! i was not from that town where i stopped, so i did not care! anyways, each day it gets better. when i switched to advil i felt alot better even though i would eat 3 or 4 at a time. keep your head up, you will make it!!

[Messy]

OMG hun I'm soo sorry your feeling this way! but things do get better, trust me! on my day 3 postop I was crying to my bf saying What the heck did i do to myself! I didnt sleep for weeks either cuz I sleep on my stomach and I couldnt do that after my BA, and It was hard taking a shower, I felt compelety useless! My recovery wasnt great either, I ended up in the ER because the pain pills didnt agree with my stomach (not fun). Just hang in there hun, big hugs to you

[meowmeow]

On day 5 I called my mom and told her I wanted to KILL MYSELF. I was in pain. I had ugly alien objects stuffed into my body. I felt like crap from the medication. I was so mad at myself and depressed about everything. I was sure I made a mistake with getting a BA and I wanted to die.

Om day 6 I was pretty much fine. No death wishes but still unhappy.

On day 7 I felt pretty good.

On day 17 (today) I am happy. Physically, I feel almost normal again. I LOVE my new breasts and would do it all over again.

Hopefully on day 18 I will be even happier and healthier. I think I will be. But that is tomorrow... so I just look forward to a new day.

[bgirlie]

Oh don't worry abotu the crying I NEVER cry usually, to the point where my bf jokingly asks "do you have a heart woman!?" but during the first week and a half I would cry for absolutely no reason. Literally, mid conversation i'd start crying, it was lame! Just let it be, cry your eyes out, and know that it will soon go away it did for me!

[StephanieBella]

Oh sweets, I've been a crying, emotional mess for DAYS! It didn't help that the guy I'm sorta dating and I have been fighting non-stop either.

I've been okay on my own though and not having any help because I haven't had any pain or difficulty with anything. My recovery's been fairly easy, in fact. But I'm not looking forward to waking up early tomorrow and having a full day of work and school. I've been getting tired from doing nothing, so I can't imagine how many cups of coffee, I'm gonna need to get through the day...

At least it can only get better from here...

[Bloom]

Sweetheart, take a deep breath and remember that you are full of drugs

The drugs affect a lot of people, sending them into depressive moods and altered states, it is just a time to get through. Allow yourself to just rest and take it easy. Your body and mind are not yet back to your normal state and it may take a few days.
I am very sensitive to drugs as well and they totally messed with me, but I knew that it was temporary and just let it wash over me without trying to negotiate or stop it, just acknowledge it and let it go. It is just a chemical reaction
Once you get the drugs out of your system the world will look so much better, so watch some tv, eat some good food and drink plenty of water to flush your poor body of all those substances.
It won't last, hun, everything will look so much brighter soon!
Hang in there! We are all here for you

Warmly,
Bloom

[peri10079]

Oh, you will get through this! I haven't had mine done yet but you sound alot like I was feeling after my last delivery. I had a c-section and I felt awful from all of the pain killers. I was throwing up and couldn't deal with the headaches. I didn't feel better until I was on over the counter meds instead of the strong prescription stuff. I seriously think that these pain killers mess with your head.

Take it day by day, don't feel bad for feeling bad. You need to focus on getting through the day and you WILL feel better soon.

[♥cInNaMoN♥]

I was in SO much pain that I was regretting having done it! I was angry, so angry. Angry at myself, Especially at the doctor. The very last time I called, he actually talked to me instead of the receptionist relaying a message (I think it's because he was too embarrassed to relay this one I'm about to say)

I got my pain meds filled on a thurs afternoon, the day of my surgery. The extreme pain started on Friday afternoon, after office hours. I called the office FIRST THING that monday morning. BTW, I was prescribed the weakest lortabs possible, #5.

I told him I was in SO MUCH PAIN that I couldn't sleep, that I had took TWO of the pain meds at one time to see if it would help, felt like throwing up, had a fever of 101 since saturday and had finished my antibiotics that morning, etc. Asked if he could call in a different type of pain medicine, maybe tramadol (I've taken that before and it is actually a non opiate) a He cut me off, never being sympathetic and said, "You shouldn't be in pain at this point, sweetie. Why don't you take some motrin when you get off the phone with me, okay?" Boy, being called a liar while being in so much pain AND being told to take motrin was enough to not go to my post-op appointment or speak to that ass ever again. I would never suggest to anyone to miss their post-op appointment, that was a very personal choice for me.

I had a fever and extreme, EXTREME pain in my breasts for 4 days (and BAD pain for much longer than that) and was NOT allowed to ice and scared to go against instructions so believe me, it is not rare to be in pain with ba.

But I promise, this pain will pass. I thought it wouldn't, but it will and you will forget it.

[kristym]

I'm soo sorry your feeling this way! but things do get better,

Soft Hugs Kristym

[starrxx]

Thank you all so much for all the replies, its good to see im not alone! I feel like such an idiot, and can't stop saying "what did I do to myself???". Its to the point that im even questioning if I did this REALLY for me or because I know my boyfriend loves big boobs. WOW, this is bad! He HATED the idea of me getting my boobs done the entire time, and only went along with it because it made me happy, so I know this isn't the case..but right now I can't help but think that way because of the mood im in. Im really not looking forward to work and class tomorrow AT ALL and even though im sick of being home, id rather be here than trying to work or pay attention in school feeling the way that I do.

Im only taking the muscle relaxer [last one is tonight, I was supposed to take them for 5 days] and antibiotics at this point and stopped pain meds or sleeping pills, so im trying to tough out the pain because I hate the way I feel with meds and especially with the new work/school week starting

Thanks for all your responses, you all are the best!

[AANoMore]

I hope that you will be feeling better real soon.

[kjb]

You are definetly not alone. I am 7 days po and I am in major pain still, it wreaks havoc on your body. Hang in there it is going to be easier everyday. I will be sending healing thoughts your way.

[BallerinaGirl555]

I just got my pre-op booklet and a huge bulk of it talked about how depression is a normal stage of recovery. Super common and natural. It also says that your caregiver should not be someone who immediately says "what did you do!" And it is a natural feeling to regret it while the pain is still bad. It should start to get better soon, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Its wonderful that your surgery is over with, you did it, its done, now just try to breathe and think of how much fun it will be to go bra shopping! ::hug::