AmberD

I have metastatic insulinoma and type 1 diabetes so I can't safely have implants. I'd like to have huge sizers in the range of 2000-7000 cc's. I know it's crazy big. Are there such things? I'd like to just know what it felt like to have such things since my life has turned to crap dealing with these two diseases. It could spread to my breasts my doctor said. I'd like to know what it would be like to live vicariously while I still can feel my nipples if it comes to that horrible point. If they don't exist is there any idea on how to make them myself so they would last in public, I'm thinking for a week during the day.

ExoticAngel

Hi Amber,
Sorry to hear that you have been having a rough time with your medical diagnosis.
I highly doubt you'll be able to find implant sizers in the 2000-7000cc range. To be honest 7000 is a little crazy, it would definatly give you back problems and be like wearing 5 pound sacks of potatoes on your chest!
However you can purchases 'sizers' of a smaller CC online. Try:
http://m.**********.com/mmh/product.do?id=39762

Hope you enjoy your new toys! And may my best wishes and thoughts be with you during this time.

ExoticAngel

Hmmm don't think the forum will allow me to share the site but just google breast implant sizers online and youll find them!

AmberD

Thank you so much. I just would love to know what it's like to live on the small wild side. These stupid tumors are so hard to even locate and they resist chemo. I hate having to live on insulin blockers one moment and sugar the next. The CGMS makes me feel unhuman.

justcountrygal

I'm so sorry to hear.. I don't know you but I know you're strong enough to pull through all this! I'm not sure where to find such big sizers but this website is great, it's pricey but look through it. I hope this helps! Google "special trade" and it should be the first link. http://www.special-trade.eu/ Good luck hun

AmberD

My best friend died from complications of chemotherapy from miss diagnosed hepatocellular adenoma due to birth control pills. It's critical to NOT use chemo on that type of cancer. Her sister, who was brutally raped, and friends (who walk through the tenderloin at night) drown themselves in alcohol now. I remind myself I have to stay strong to try to help them out of it and that my life belongs to the people around me more than myself. Although I try hide my problems from them so it doesn't add to their burden. That's probably why I'd like one crazy release in life.

justcountrygal

That is awful to hear, my prayers go out to you and your friends and family and their families as well. Stay strong!

sbentley068

Stay strong. I know you'd like to live a little wild while you still have time but that's crazy..It would feel quite heavy to have such sizers. Opt for smaller ones hun. Our prayers go out to you.

glitzy1011

sorry to hear. stay strong.

AmberD

I got the guts to mention my desire for new implants, larger than before but not crazy big, just to be able to wear a strapless dress and not feel it will fall off, to my best oncologist at Stanford. Much to my surprise he said he understood and that he would try to explain to any surgeon about my unique condition. The foremost problem is convincing any plastic surgeon that my blood glucose levels have to be higher than is typically normal, since insulinoma tumors are almost completely unpredictable, yet in my case too small to hunt down. I still think I'm looking at January of next year because my stupid government security/research job will probably be downsized, so I'll have even more free time on my hands.

Side note...I made 800cc, 1200cc, and crazy 3000cc sizers my self using my engineering and aerospace medical knowledge, complete with orange anti-bac sludge prewash. Key was to make them double shelled to feel and carry vibration, like a real breast implant would, and using a decent bra to keep my real breasts from drooping. Strangely 3000cc did not feel that so big as to limit movement in real life, but a figure to die for given my small frame. It really is something to experience firsthand.

Thanks so much to everyone who has responded to this thread. It's so hard for me to discuss these things openly.

AmberD

Where is the thanks button on this forum?! Just so all of you know I am so appreciative.

Island Baby

Do whatever makes you happy hun. Life is too short to think about the could've should've would've. BTW the Thank button is on the bottom right of each post.

holidaytatas

You are a very strong woman

MamaKS

3000 cc?! Holy moses!! Good luck with everything I hope it all works out

AmberD

The only strong person I know is my poor best friend's sister. I can't imagine putting up with the stuff she has. It makes everything I've gone thru look like nothing. I have a rash now forming on my left and on my right where my CVC was put in for my many cyclophosphamide adventures. I can't believe I'm so fortunate to of gotten TEN then have to deal with this, but I would give anything if it meant that poor girl could have her sister back. I can't believe how the chemo killed her sister when doing nothing would of been right. The minute everyone hears cancer they think the answer is to pump in drugs. It weakens your immune system, which weakens your ability to clot. So you get to bleed out and be left on life support. I know this is horrible to hear but it's my life. Heptocellar adenoma is horrible,